Post by 0happyday on Jun 17, 2007 1:36:32 GMT -5
To my Dear Friends,
Thank you for all the prayers, I sure have felt them. Thought I would update you. I am now waiting for Medicare to decide if they will approve the Surgeon. I am also waiting for Medicaid who has drug their feet for 2 and a half months now. Last Monday all my arrangements had been made. I was to fly by "Angel Flight" on Tuesday to Atlanta for my pre-op, then surgery on Thursday. Motel was booked and paid for, and Scheduling fee by my church. My aunt and uncle drove an hour and a half to pick up my child to keep her why I was away. I then received a call that my surgery had been canceled until they could get approval.
Monday night was very bad. I had finally come to terms with the surgery and was ready to get it over with. During the time of processing all that had happened and was about to happen I thought " I don't think I will ever have a happy moment again as long as I live. I could not see past waking up after surgery.
Then I opened my Email and there was this letter;
Hey "0happyday",
"A" (who is my daughter) told me about what is going on and I just wanted to let you know that I may not be there in body, but I will be there in Spirit.
If at any time you feel like it gets too unbearable, I want you to do this for me and know that I am with you.
I want you to close your eyes. Try and clear your mind and feel the energy build up in your heart and let it flow through the rest of your body. Once you have done this, think of me, Think about the times that we spent together when I was a child. Think of the smiles you put on my face. Think about the cloud bunnies we used to look at on the hillside by our apartment. That warmth that you will feel going through your body at this point is my love. This will be the testament to you that I was there.
When you open your eyes, everything will be OK and you will see me when you look into A's eyes.
I love you like a mother "0happyday" and I hope that all goes well for you.
"D"
This letter was from my step-son who I had not spoken to in several years and had really lost contact with. he is in another country so I had not seen him since his graduation 15 years ago.
When I was at my lowest and felt like such a failure; all of a sudden that simple note, let me know that I had made a difference in a little boys life. I will cherish that letter forever. I can't wait till I'm better because I am going to see him no matter where he is.
Then I decided again to trust God that there was a reason to postpone the trip. On Thursday I sat with my child with our 5 month puppy between us while she died from Parvo. The most horrible death I've ever seen. I also found out the Surgeon was sick and had not come in to work. on Thursday.
And again, why do we ever doubt God, and that he always knows better than we. ? Big Hugs too tired to write anymore and again
I thank all of you for your prayers and support, I love you all
0happyday
Thank you for all the prayers, I sure have felt them. Thought I would update you. I am now waiting for Medicare to decide if they will approve the Surgeon. I am also waiting for Medicaid who has drug their feet for 2 and a half months now. Last Monday all my arrangements had been made. I was to fly by "Angel Flight" on Tuesday to Atlanta for my pre-op, then surgery on Thursday. Motel was booked and paid for, and Scheduling fee by my church. My aunt and uncle drove an hour and a half to pick up my child to keep her why I was away. I then received a call that my surgery had been canceled until they could get approval.
Monday night was very bad. I had finally come to terms with the surgery and was ready to get it over with. During the time of processing all that had happened and was about to happen I thought " I don't think I will ever have a happy moment again as long as I live. I could not see past waking up after surgery.
Then I opened my Email and there was this letter;
Hey "0happyday",
"A" (who is my daughter) told me about what is going on and I just wanted to let you know that I may not be there in body, but I will be there in Spirit.
If at any time you feel like it gets too unbearable, I want you to do this for me and know that I am with you.
I want you to close your eyes. Try and clear your mind and feel the energy build up in your heart and let it flow through the rest of your body. Once you have done this, think of me, Think about the times that we spent together when I was a child. Think of the smiles you put on my face. Think about the cloud bunnies we used to look at on the hillside by our apartment. That warmth that you will feel going through your body at this point is my love. This will be the testament to you that I was there.
When you open your eyes, everything will be OK and you will see me when you look into A's eyes.
I love you like a mother "0happyday" and I hope that all goes well for you.
"D"
This letter was from my step-son who I had not spoken to in several years and had really lost contact with. he is in another country so I had not seen him since his graduation 15 years ago.
When I was at my lowest and felt like such a failure; all of a sudden that simple note, let me know that I had made a difference in a little boys life. I will cherish that letter forever. I can't wait till I'm better because I am going to see him no matter where he is.
Then I decided again to trust God that there was a reason to postpone the trip. On Thursday I sat with my child with our 5 month puppy between us while she died from Parvo. The most horrible death I've ever seen. I also found out the Surgeon was sick and had not come in to work. on Thursday.
And again, why do we ever doubt God, and that he always knows better than we. ? Big Hugs too tired to write anymore and again
I thank all of you for your prayers and support, I love you all
0happyday