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Post by sarahconnor on Oct 20, 2010 5:53:20 GMT -5
I'd like to hear from anyone who has had different, extreme, unusual symptoms during Winter. We've just come into Spring in Australia. This winter just gone has been awful - I've experienced fatigue, depression, lack of motivation, sadness, & hopelessness. My head extremely foggy, almost hurt to think at times. I know from my other female friends in Australia their Winter symptoms were very much the same. The mental incapacity is been really horrible for everyone.
Does this sound familiar to others (men included).
Thanks.
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Post by amron on Oct 20, 2010 8:30:05 GMT -5
Hi Sarah, Sounds like you hit the nail on the head to me. I dont think these recent winters qualify as the standard type. Reason being that the chemtrails, have chucked the skys full of heavey duty chemicals, hell bent to destroy humanity as we know it. Through pain we are very robotic, our bodys respond to the demands of morgie. If we resist, fighting the beast, all hell breaks loose. Our minds become clouded, we are more passive, depression follows on the heals, because we understand what is happening.
My God Jesus Christ, tells me to hang ten. He can take care of the giants in the land, telling me to move on and claim the victory. My responsibility is believing He is totaly able to destroy the enemys, FEAR NOT.
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Post by sarahconnor on Oct 21, 2010 0:12:28 GMT -5
Thank you amron for confirming what I thought to be true.
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Post by amron on Oct 28, 2010 16:24:35 GMT -5
Hi Sarah, Last evening I just experienced the most horrible chemical depression, that morgies has to offer. Morgies becomes extremely active between 4:00 and 8:00 pm. most of my big pains and muscle tightenings, back of the head pain, is at that time. For about three wks. its been almost intolerable, the tylenol and asprin doesn't cut it. I've had depression before and I know what the average case is. But never in my life have I had the sickening depth of depression that morgies puts out. I was lower than the belly of a whale, I hung in there with Mr. suicide for two long hours. I wont ever, not understand, what has driven others with this disease over the brink. It was pure unadulterated hell. I think I get me a swedish massager to vibrate the back of my neck, to return to reality. I want to be prepared this next time, and perhalps it wont last so long.
Any one with this intense diabolical thinking to opp oneself, this strange horrible moments of depression???
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Post by awake on Oct 28, 2010 18:37:51 GMT -5
May I describe this disesae as an emotional rollercoster. The feelings of what this puts one though emotionally and physically can be intorerable at times. I did have an espisode very early on with this affliction during the inital onset where it almost pushed me over the edge. I would not call the "depression" made by this affliction as "normal"
This thing is smart and it has a goal it accomplishes in the body. My symptons wax and wane and i haven't really noticed a worsning during a particular season. I would say one thing about symptons though and that it is WAY more instense at night than during the day. This has been a constant with my from the very begining. I would say that the most debiltating symptom of this disease is the outright loss of "who you used to be" From post onset to where i am at know i am a completely different person personality wise.
I have always thought this affliction reaks of elements of population control. What better way to control a population than to make them competely dosile and indifferent? Nobody can fight back if they haven't go the strengh or the will power to do anything...
This is what i personally believe is at the core of this whole affliction. If you look at the motives behind anything the governments have done or are doing it always comes down to control. control the media, the food supply, the information etc...They clearly don't want an intelligent articulate population to question their motives.
I think the whole DOP thing was setup long before this disease become prelvent. The whole nonsence you get from every doctor is too uniform to be just a coincidence... To me this was all planned out before hand.
Awake
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Post by sarahconnor on Oct 28, 2010 20:06:55 GMT -5
amron do you take Opaline? I've only been taking them 3 days now. I'm hoping they will help with the cycle & pain (particularly my neck). Going to see a chiropractor soon, I need crunching back into place.
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Post by sarahconnor on Oct 29, 2010 16:14:16 GMT -5
Hi awake, I agree whole heartedly with everything you said.
I first tried to end my life in 1998 & then again in 2002. I thought prescription & OTC medicine would do the trick, but no. In 2002 I tried taking a knife to my wrists, though I didn't have the guts to cut properly. In the middle of 2006 I desperately wanted to kill myself. I was in such a bad way. I had been taking Flagyl & developed the most awful paranoia. I had planned that I was going to drive to the cementery take a whole box of Seroquel & curl up next to my late Grandfathers grave. Then the fear in me stepped up even more, I was then convinced if I took the Seroquel to kill myself I would end up in hell.
Back than I was too scared to live & too scared to die.
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Post by amron on Oct 29, 2010 20:08:59 GMT -5
Thanks, I'm sorry you both have suffered but it is comforting to not be alone. The brain is going to be the challange like morph said. I think that I've just had one go round on this scary track, I need to be fortified with more knowledge of how this selective system works. I had a wonderful symptom free day and its blessed, I am so greatful.
Today I have squares and triangles, where the debri was removed, never a dull moment. Morgies is letting me know its still in charge. I am seeing victims with lesions, around me. I want to run up to them and tell them what to do, its painful to observe the beginings of others agony. I am so greatful for this Board. Thanks again!
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Post by Rosieyes on Nov 15, 2010 14:39:58 GMT -5
:)Dear Sarah, I'm so glad that you did not go through with any of these pre-meditated notions to end your life! I've appreciated reading all that you've shared in your post writings. Please keep sharing your value! Thanks... Rosieyes
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Post by sarahconnor on Nov 15, 2010 16:07:36 GMT -5
Dear Rosieyes, what a lovely thing for you to say, thank you.
You know I've thought many times I've been far too out spoken, played too many songs & wore my heart of my sleeve, but I guess it's too late to change who I am now.
Sadly those feelings of ending ones life never really seems to go away. As much as I do not like to admit it, I thought I had a grasp on that, but no. I'm ok though. Recovering from yet another nasty virus. My partner, myself & our little boy have averaged a virus a month for the last 12 months (maybe more). I can not stand being sick, been sick for so long with M's, anything now that brings me down I have to have my blinkers on.
As the thread says "winter symptoms"...well now we're in spring in Melbourne...was on the news the other night, worse hayfever season in 10yrs & YES I can vouch for that, it's awful! Nothing works any more to alleviate symptoms, I seem to be immune to all those over the counter things. I stick to the herbs & hope for the best.
A couple of weeks ago I decided I wanted to try to forget about M's (lol), yeah I'm dreamin, so hard to do. The pain never goes away. As for physical pain, well we all learn to live with it. My neck has been giving me hell, but at least now I have a lovely doctor who has taken me seriously, did some x-rays & confirmed I have osteoarthritis. I'm meant to be seeing him for follow up as he would like me to have physiotherapy, but unfortunately my doctor is very sick right now.
Yes, I do believe the whole of the population are infected with this man made evil & as my good friend said to me, the majority are putting their mild symptoms down to stress.
On a happy note, which I'd like to share with you, next month our little boy is being baptised. Traditionally in our family we baptise as babies, but due to the terrible time we have been through sadly this never happened. So, next month will be a big celebration. As well as William being baptised I've decided to have my own baptism reaffirmed & then next year I will do my confirmation.
Thanks again for reaching out. With love - sarah
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Post by sarahconnor on Nov 24, 2010 18:11:37 GMT -5
I had a strange episode yesterday, which I'd like to share.
My eyes have been bothering me recently, itchy, sore, blood shot at times & a little swelling. I'd been at the shopping centre yesterday, got in the car to come home & my eyes hurt instantly, an intense itch & I could feel them turning red. By the time we got home I had a little headache coming on. I don't normally suffer headaches, though it was very humid so I took that into account.
Once home I was doing something in the kitchen & suddenly I had white flashes & spots before my eyes. It took me by surprise & I blamed it on looking out the kitchen window which had a reflection bouncing off it. Then suddenly I developed floaters. I've had floaters in my eyes all my life, but this was a lot of floaters & mainly my left eye. I started feeling heavy in the head, so went & sat down with the boys who were playing outside. Then the vision in my left eye began to change, the peripheral vision of my left eye was hazy & jagged, I couldn't focus on anything properly. The eye symptoms increased & quickly. I went & looked in the mirror, my right eye was blood shot, but my left eye was clear & yet the left was the one I was losing the vision from.
The symptoms got much worse over an hour & my partner could see I was a little distressed & asked me what was wrong. I told him I didn't feel right, & by that time my vision was closing in on both eyes. I felt as though my eyes could literally explode, like both eyes had a tight clear film over them & the pain on the top of my head was bad. I felt a little sick when I stood up & thought I could easily faint if I was to get frightening. I stayed as calm as I could, but my partner wasn't convinced I was ok, he was scared I was having a stroke.
My partner then phoned a service called "nurse on call". I told him I wished he wouldn't, I clearly said I didn't want to speak to anyone & I'd be fine. Anyway, he phoned the nurse, & as he was calling her my left eye started to become clearer. I said to myself "I bet this thing goes as quick as it came"...and it d**n well did. So my partner is talking to the nurse & she then wanted to speak to me. So I agreed.
The nurse asked all the appropriate questions & I replied honestly. I did say to her, "would I be correct in saying my episode was neurological in nature." She said "yes" & asked me to go to the nearest ER. She did ask me what medical conditions I suffered & I told her I had Fibromyalgia, she had no idea what that was. I forgot to tell her I have osteoarthritis, which is causing pinched nerves in my neck & thinking afterwards if this could have been part of the episode. I guess I'll never know.
No, I didn't go to the Hospital, I couldn't put myself through that again & I'm feeling ok.
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Post by amron on Nov 25, 2010 6:06:49 GMT -5
Gee Sarah... What a experience! I can identify, but chalked it up to the ms. In retrospect my life would have been easier if I hadn't listened to other people, and went straight to the eye doctor. I endured flashes of light for about a year, all around the edges of eyes, especially at night. It was scary, this all took place about five yrs. ago. Everyone told me floaters were normal, and to be endured. Problem with that is I didn't have just floaters I had perminate spots both in the center of the eye.
By the time I got to the eye doctor, I could have lost my vision, fiddling around. I was having detached Retnias, one eye first, and then the second. The eye doctor ask me if I was well "well as what" no I didn't have anything new. When I first showed symptoms of morgellons, I had eye pain that I thought my eyeballs were going to pop out. Sinius area was etremely painfull too. Today I know that agony was morgies, blurred vision, and I would keep blinking my eyes to get a clearence. Finally the agony got out of my face. I do have some rezidual bent visual perception, I have black spots in center of each eye, that never goes away. Every now and then, I get terrible stabbing pains, that litterly make me yell. I shared this because you need to see a specialist for your eyes, hang up your Dr. memorys, which are bad, and for the sake of your vision see the doctor. Good Luck! put a lid on your abused morgie person for now.
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Post by sarahconnor on Nov 25, 2010 16:38:42 GMT -5
Thanks for your input amron, yes you are correct, I do need to see an eye doctor. My reason for not going to the hospital the other day was purely because the hospital I would have to visit is the same hospital that has ignored my neurological symptoms in the past. Neurological disturbance in my body is nothing new & they only presented when I started with M. I was scared if I turned up to the ER they would have called the psychiatric triage, which they have done in the past. I hope you understand I couldn't cope with this on my record, & I wasn't being silly or negligent towards my health. I've been waiting for over 3 weeks for my check with my GP, unfortunately he has been very ill. I'm due to see him Monday & very eager to do so since I know things are not quite right. I had been putting the eye symptoms down to allergies/hayfever. Funnily enough the day I had my episode I did comment to my partner that there was something different that day. When we were at the shops I said "why is everyone so docile?" He said "you mean dopey". Yeah, it was kinda like that, people just weren't with it & I did feel that way myself. Then it was on the news the following day about a surge in allergy symptoms because of our weather. Here is the story on what they call a rare disorder known as "Thunderstorm asthma"; www.abc.net.au/news/stories/2010/11/25/3076420.htm?site=melbourneThanks again.
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Post by amron on Nov 26, 2010 4:39:46 GMT -5
Hi... its me again the terrible spelling person. At night when I'm tired its worse. I"ve never had this word thing before this last couple of years.
I am such a bull in a china shop sometimes, sorry I stepted over the line about the Dr. issue. I've been the neuro- embarrasment thing too, painful, did another scan at the heat of the morgies problem two yrs. ago and they said I was just fine. Morgie trama.
I guess you might call me a serious conspiracy buff; that Melbourne article smacks as a chemical contaminate. Even in this tiny town, we've had air that qualified as near to acid dump. The gardens all died, holes in all plant life, in the forest. Mutant wild flowers. Yet the chemtrails keep coming. My flowers all died, at first I thought it was my morgies, but everyone experienced same. Dumbed down we are all dumbed here in US, we behave like sheep because we're altered mentaly by anti depressants I think. The whole darn country gets stomped on, and they say it didn't happen. Logicaly we all cant be cowards, millions of people cowards? No there into grave mind control. Just for curiosity sake, follow this happening, and see if the people dont respond in their natural fashion?
I'll be with you in my prayers, as you go to check things out, God Bless.
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Post by awake on Nov 26, 2010 14:32:34 GMT -5
I have been feeling very uneasy the last couple of days too. I feel so dosile and a real heaviness over me lately. I don't think it's entirely connected to morges. It isn't too bizarre to say that they are amping up their mind altering technology. These most likely being in the form of HARRP or something similar.
I know coming from a "morgie" it may seem strange as we are already considered to be nutz by most presumably "sane" people...The reality however you want to point it is people in general haven't got a clue about want is really going to in this world.
I hate all the new wireless technologies they have brought out over the past few years...It's not only the phone network, but also wi-fi networks. These wi-fi signals operate in the microwave range and nobody qeustions there safety...people just want quicker and faster networks while having no idea that they could be subjecting themselves to harmful radiation and possible affects on neurological functioning.
Many people don't believe or understand that electromagnetic signals can affect the body...They don't realize that our bodies run on signals. The cells depended on signals in the form of hormones and nerve cells use electric pulses to store and transmit information.
Want do you think would happen if those signals were to become disrupted by an externel electromagnetc field? It does not take a genius to work it out...Even me with my morged out body can grasp what the effect might be.
These are unprecedented times we are living in...The injustice and the ignorence is incredible.
awake
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Post by sarahconnor on Dec 14, 2010 3:55:47 GMT -5
I wanted to let you know I went to the eye specialist. He said what I experienced was a migraine. I had never heard of an "ocular migraine". I hope no one else experiences such an episode, it was really unpleasant. Ocular Migraine - www.naturaleyecare.com/diseases.asp?d_num=33
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Post by sarahconnor on Mar 2, 2011 18:43:32 GMT -5
I woke up this morning with swollen puffy eyes. The swelling has started to go down, however my right eye is very red near the eye brow, feels like a bite, I'm not sure.
Now all I can see out of my right is coloured waves, triangle in shape & they keep moving. My peripheral vision is giving off moving patterns & white light. Reminds me a little of the "test pattern" image on the TV from years back.
I don't have a headache, so this symptom can't be an "optical migraine". One thing the eye specialist did mention about these migraines is they are usually caused by something in our diet.
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Post by bill on Apr 5, 2013 14:07:55 GMT -5
My winters are definately worse.
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