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Post by sadsack on Dec 24, 2008 18:34:27 GMT -5
This is my second Christmas alone because of this nightmare. Too often I think, "how much longer? How much longer can I go on with this, day after day, trying to keep it together, trying to find hope and strength?" It's just not coming. I am so afraid of the cdc announcement due out next month. If it doesn't confirm that we have is a real, distinct, and new disease, I don't know what I will do. I can barely take the distance that this has put between me and my loved ones as it is. If they dare to come out with something that further diminishes us, I'll set myself on fire in front of the CDC. Not really. I already have too much pain. anewday
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Post by Awake on Dec 24, 2008 20:07:57 GMT -5
yeah... It's the first Christmas with this horror for me. It's possibly worse for me because i never left my family home due to other prexisting conditions i had, autism being one of them. I am also on permenate disibility benefit... I have never been able to interact well in the past ..and suprise now i also have morgellons. could the two be related? i have not made a definitive connection but it could be..
Am i being punished or what? i think i will have to consult god for that answer! I've always had more luck with things of a spiritual nature... ;D I don't think the CDC sits at the right hand of god tho and setting your self on fire will not make them bat an eye lid... joke
I look back to last year and all that i have gone through and experienced. I've had it approximately nine months now. I have gone through many up and downs with the symptoms since the inital and abrupt onset. I can remember when i first noticed something was "not right" it actually came on abruptly and i can pin point it to the exact day. That is when the itching crawling start and it was not stopped from there. It does appear to go into remission and i could tie it to the moon phase as ohter have noticed the same reaction to the cycle. Who knows, I just trying to figure it out and if i don't have so many brain farts i would be way rather along now!
Awake
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Post by sadsack on Dec 24, 2008 21:16:04 GMT -5
Awake - Trust me, I have asked God many times what have I done that this should happen. He doesn't answer. Then I wonder if it is previous life karma, but I don't even know if reincarnation is real. I know nothing except I am sick and alone because I "got" something somehow and I am trying to make the best of a bad situation. One thing that might happen if I set myself on fire (leaving messages, of course, about WHY) in front of the CDC, it would make headlines. Like the Buddhist monks used to do. But oh, the pain...sorry...had more than a lifetime's worth already. anewday
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Post by ladyoflight on Jan 15, 2009 23:34:47 GMT -5
Hello, Just another tormented lonely sufferer. I have suffered with this unknown plague for twelve years now. Been through all the humiliation and embarrasment, been told by three doctors that I am having delusions. I have lost my life completely. I never leave the house except to go to work. I come home and soak myself for hours in clorine bleach then saturate my body with vaseline, weep and pray to God for sleep. Drag myself out of bed and start all over. I know nothing else to do. There are many in my area who also suffer with this disease.
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Post by sadsack on Jan 16, 2009 13:17:26 GMT -5
Hi, lady - I'd not heard of that book before. Did you read it? Sounds very interesting! anewday
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Post by Awake on Jan 16, 2009 13:52:33 GMT -5
That sure sounds like a good book! It's along the lines of what i believe in. In terms of the endtime events and god coming judgment. There is evidence that suggests morgellons as been around since ancient times. It could of been one of the uncurable plagues of ancient egypt as described in the bible. With everything that this thing does and it's all encompassing nature it's easy to see why.
Awake
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Post by sadsack on Jan 16, 2009 14:35:27 GMT -5
authortree.com/9781413771503Botch of Egypt What you are about to read is the startling account of a life-changing experience that set the stage and marked the beginning of a mighty work of God. If it seems somewhat graphic in nature, it's simply because it is. It is essential that you grasp the height of my tragedy so that you might comprehend the intensity of suffering, and witness the profound reality of my ultimate transformation from the clutches of mortal death into the glorious eternal life. This story is true. It reveals human suffering in its most severe and intense stages of development, as ravenous parasites invade, torment, and ultimately consume the body by making it their personal place of dwelling. Words can only attempt to describe, or give justice to, the actual nature and degree of suffering that has taken place. Only through personal experience could one know the true torment of such a condition. Allow me to take you through my torment, and learn how God went about his business of breaking, tearing down, stripping away, and destroying the flesh so that only the spirit remained. I can only hope that through my writing, others will grasp hold of truth. Perhaps some measure of light will effectively penetrate into the darkness and confirm its existence, for only the smallest speck of light is needed to captivate and stir the consciousness starved for truth.
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