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Post by whiterose on Jan 2, 2007 10:55:55 GMT -5
When they set out to destroy a country, what will do the most damage? Destroy the family unit! What role do grandmothers typically play in the family unit? The caretakers, the helpers, the ones to be there when no one else is.
So as families crumble and as those that often held the families on their back to help to stabilize them while they go through rough waters are eliminated. What then happens to the country?
I know not all mothers or grandmothers are on this list of adhesion, but most are. I don't think this was an accident that it should hit us, mostly women, and the age group that is predominate here.
I've had it since I was 22 and never did drugs until after, I just wanted to finish shooting a hole in the so called doctor van vlotens' foot.
whiterose
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Post by whiterose on Mar 18, 2007 16:19:45 GMT -5
I have something else to say here, I believe all should go over thoroughly Cliff Mickelson's article entitled Morgellons and the Mystery of Mind Control and realize that we have not had full control of ourselves, not even a matter of moral character here. Although at times it most likely seemed like that to others.
I am sorry for the pain that I caused anyone because of this affliction. It seemed as though I could do nothing right and each moment was just another step down, I felt as though their was a weight on me that I could not lift. I begged for help so many times, and so many turned away not fully understanding the scope of this thing we call Morgellons, and how could I explain, what I myself could not understand. I would not wish this on anyone except the maker, he deserves it. So many innocent people, not perfect people, just people, really think about it, who walks out the door and says I'm going to make today worse than yesterday. So many families lost that would have been together if not for this, so many children with all the confusion and how could they be any different than the parents. Animals often die from not being able to relieve themselves. If Morgellons hasn't been a full blown attack on the World, I don't know what is.
Today I pray for a healing light to come to all those affected by not only Morgellons but the other designer diseases that have been cast on us, not by God, but by man, lyme, aids, ms, chrons, and the list goes on. The Iraq war veterans who come home and pass on much of their illness to their families. The 911 victims, who are still being victimized, and for what so the PTB could pound the drums of War and justify themselves, than came those that went along, what would have happened if America would have said no as a whole at the time? So many things that don't make sense, and if you have any time left over in your day of busy work, than maybe you can clean the dust/fibers that come from our sky. We need to all sit back and figure out how they manipulate us, and tell them no more, break up the monopoly of the media, the time is now! We want our world back, we want our skies back and we want our lives back.
whiterose
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Post by 0happyday on Mar 18, 2007 22:39:42 GMT -5
The only thing I would add here Whiterose, is; We want what "is left" of our lives back. I love you, 0happyday
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Post by sickandtired on Mar 19, 2007 10:48:34 GMT -5
This is what has been robbed from us......besides our health....
I moved HOME four years ago to spend some quality time with my mother and reconnect with old class mates, my sisters and their families......NOW......
We don't go anywhere....we have no social life.....in fear of infecting just one more.....my mother is not a spring chicken and I am missing the last years of her life. We have been invited to join all expenses paid family cruises and vacations we turned down. This is the hardest part of this disease....being sick and then isolated from the ones that mean so much.....robbing years away from relationships that you can never get back.....
I am being robbed of the last years of my mom's time here and I am angry about that....
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Post by silentlamb on Mar 19, 2007 14:48:21 GMT -5
Well….. what to say……guess I’ll just come right out with it. My family tried to have me committed against my will over the weekend. They tried to take custody of my child. They had the police out hunting me down just because we argued and I left town for the weekend and refused to tell them where I was going. They harassed my boyfriend and his family, the cops that is. They also harassed my friends and told EVERYONE I was saying I had bugs crawling all over me. They made horrible untrue statements about me by saying I was planning on killing myself and my child. I would never do that! This has greatly impacted my depression which is situational according to my shrink. Any person would be depressed in this situation don’t you agree? I had to turn myself into the police and submit to a humiliating evaluation. My child was questioned and traumatized. They let us go because they determined that I was sane. But, the damage has been done and I am now accessing that damage and it is great. Everyone in my family has a degree of some kind in the medical field. I thought they believed me but now I see different. The kicker is they still refuse to look or do any research for themselves at all. I have no one to help me now but the doctors who really do want to help me but cannot. Life really sucks right now. i went to the hemotoligist that my ID doc refered me to today. When he saw my lesions he asked me if scabies had been ruled out! I am going crazy. A sane person cannot keep living like this. sl
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Post by sarahconnor on Mar 19, 2007 15:54:09 GMT -5
I feel as though I am sitting back and witnessing others around me going insane. I have never felt more sane in my entire life. I never thought in a billion years that anything in this world could come between me and my family - It has though, and we call it Morgellons. I always believed that having a baby would bring lots of love and closeness to me from my family, but this is definitely not the case. It isn't because they don't love me, it's because of Morgellons. I can't explain in a single sentence why or how, I just know. I can't explain it to anyone in my family, and I won't, I love them too much to tell them of this terrible mess inflicted on us all. I finally decided last night after much deliberation that I need to distance myself from everyone. I don't want them to phone me, nor visit (well no one visits anymore, so no loss there). I haven't even been able to visit my 91yr old Gran in Hospital, because she has the nasty Clostridium infection from Antibiotic overuse. She had to be isolated in the hospital because it can be very contagious. The hospital are sending her home at the end of this week. They say the Clostridium infection could last 6 months. No one can tell us if she is still infectious, they keep avoiding all of my families attempts to find out. We are not a big family at all. Me, my sis, mum, dad and gran. My sis is married with two boys. We have always been so close, stuck together through thick and thin, but Morgellons is tearing us apart. I wish I could explain why or how, but I just can't, it is so difficult to try to figure it all out. I never dreamed it would be this way.
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Post by whiterose on Mar 19, 2007 23:35:32 GMT -5
Silent Lamb, I am so sorry, I wish I had the prayer or the words to fix all the pain. I lost my children because of m and left and found all the things I needed to live well enough to do what I needed to do. This is the greatest pain of morgellons, ones family and loosing ones self, it is the tear down period we all go through, but I am here to say you can and will make it. Start with the basics of life, what you need, it is not a big list. Once you realize this go from there and build. Here is what you REALLY NEED-air to breathe, water to drink, food to eat and love, if from no one else than from yourself. Than wright down what you want from life, make a goal list, one at a time if that is all you can focus on, make it happen. Learn about nutrition and use all our helps on the board, they are here, in one place, I had to figure it out for myself, so don't tell me it is hard, I won't let any of you go not a one of you.
Big Hug, whiterose
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Post by whiterose on Mar 19, 2007 23:44:14 GMT -5
Sarah, I was pregnant with M on my third child and I lost that child, I can't imagine how hard it must be to know what you have and the weight of bringing a child into the world already with this affliction. The good part is that progress is being made to the understanding of Morgellons. The good part is that you are not alone, you have many folks here that care. Your parents and family sound as though they are afraid for you and your child and fear can often come out as many things, depression, anger, rage, that is the trick to put fear aside to put anger aside and the rage, and realize that you have the power within yourself to affect change in your life, look in the mirror, that is the one you have been waiting for, now do what you need to do to make a life for you and your child. Remember in the terminator, when she says move solider, time to say that to yourself. Much love,
Big Hug, whiterose
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Post by aligator on Mar 19, 2007 23:55:43 GMT -5
Speaking of families....this place, right here, right now, the support and love each and everyone shows, if only a few words at a time, or an earful of ranting and raving......brings us closer.
Don't be so naive to think that words on a screen mean nothing, words are very powerful, and there are pained faces, and challenged lives behind these words.
People come here for support, for knowledge, to cry out, to share, to grieve, to find inspiration, hope and courage. This is what family is to me, in one respect or another. Thank God there is a place like this, and caring people like you.....every one of you.
What a gift we have, in working with eachother, not against. Well......for the most part anyway...families do have their disagreements now and again.
ahh....the ties that bind
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Post by silentlamb on Mar 20, 2007 18:41:34 GMT -5
Thank you Whiterose and everyone! This board is a true sanctuary. The tear down has lasted too long for me. I have been afraid to break away from my family, now I am afraid not to break away. I am at a crossroads and I have heard it said, and also believe, that God does for us what we cannot do for ourselves. I still have my child, my boyfriend is standing by me, and my Grandmother continues to be my rock in life. I now have all of you guys here on this board. I have love and I am very grateful for that. Your suggestion to write down my goals is a simple one but extremely profound. Sometimes I overlook the obvious and also find it hard to organize so this advice to me could not come at a better time as it is exactly what I need to do. Thank you for the much needed direction. My counselor who has been treating me for the past four years knew me before I found out what this was. She has been my saving grace and continues to be that. She is going to write me a letter and give me other documentation from my file that I can carry on my person should I ever encounter a situation in which my sanity is ever questioned again over this condition. Strange how someone can believe what is written on a piece of paper but not what is in solid form right in front of their eyes. This is so messed up! What I am having a difficult time accepting is that there is no logic to all of this. Nobody can tell me that we are aware of this condition when others are completely oblivious for no reason. Perhaps if I knew the reason why I could accept my fate more easily. Does anybody know why us? What makes us different? sl
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Post by whiterose on Mar 20, 2007 23:14:06 GMT -5
I've had many years to consider these questions and it has only been within the last year that I am beginning to get the picture as to what has been happening. I will speak her of primarily Morgellons; however, I think it is being played out for a purpose.
One of the obvious things that happens is many of us, especially during the rewiring phase look to be on a drug known as meth. It wasn't around when I was infected, but I find it being put into our country at this particular time, not accidental. Many of the symptoms are the same --extreme weight loss, sensitivity to light, nervousness, sores, the difference is our sores come from the inside. We didn't go out and buy this, but for some reason it does seem that certain folks are the target.
If you look in the bloodlines/type/DNA and bloodlines alone section in the alter theories, you will discover a great deal. What do I believe, I believe it is something on the DNA, some folks blood will show a propensity towards this marker. It is the woman that often carries this trait on her genes, so regardless if the trait shows up in her or not, if it is on her genetic structure she will be a target, (this is my opinion). I'm sure at some point soon they will make a law against having ones own opinion and make it retroactive to this date, (sorry I had to).
Why is the biggest question, several thoughts, eliminate the stronger females, the truth tellers, the ones that hold up the families. Maybe someone went through time and saw us as a threat. I do believe this was a genetic hit, (still my opinion).
I know many of us have a great deal in common. I look around the world at all the injustices to other people, and I wonder who is this insane group doing all these things to so many. Setting up ways to destroy countries, murder peoples, not blink an eye at all the killing at any killing. Are these really human beings. I don't understand. I stood at a meeting for our bill of rights and was surprised at the total numbness in the audience to the war. There are mothers and babies dying, and it so saddened me to know they seemed to feel so little. One man called later to tell me how right I was and to offer his support. So many just sat there. How easy that is, to do nothing. There is a saying that all it takes for evil to flourish is for good men to do nothing, it is so true.
I do not know why, they have done this to us, but even if I did, I don't think I could understand.
whiterose
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