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Post by ladykat on May 6, 2012 2:05:10 GMT -5
I have had symptoms for a while..... specks like 20 years ago? But... it has gotten worse.... so much weird stuff coming out my pores of my face, for the last 3 weeks. I looked up my symptoms on line, 2 weeks ago had had a good laugh.... really. I mean its so bizarre that it just couldn't be, right? So I started paying more attention to the "space junk" being thrown out my pores... and was shocked when there were so many weird green and red and blue fibers. I THOUGHT I was dealing with some spider veins on my face, and have had them lazered off a few times in the past 10 years. Well my "spider veins" started working themselves out.... shocking me with LOTS of 3" black fibers all twisted up with what looked like a mosquito in the middle! LOTS of them. Super weird. I showed my husband of 26 years... he looked at me like I had really snapped. BUT over the next few days he yarded some of this weird crap out my pores. So I am looking for ANY logical reason, but really scared. I have had 3 big sores on my face that is just a mess.... they just show up.... then the space junk pushes thru.... then these white things. For 3 weeks all I want is my life back but feel like I have leprosy! I am a mess. Everyday I wake up after sleeping very little because I always feel like I am crawling... things feel like they are biting me for the longest time.... and when I look to see what it is there is nothing there. Like 3 years of that anyway. I always am looking for something in my eyes.... they always feel scratchy and red... my husband and I look and look, but see nothing. I feel like I woke up 3 weeks ago, in the twilight zone... and keep waiting for the bad dream to end.... but I have decided the dream is a hybrid of the Twilight zone X Groundhog day, because when I wake up its only worse, but still there. We tried burning one of the bigger black "splinters" that came out... I have a few of them. It would not burn.... it only unraveled a bit. I have pretty much been stuck here at home for 3 weeks, because when I go to get ready and cover this crap with makeup, it REALLY looks bad.... so I feel stuck. Last Sunday we went out to our wilderness wild life refuge property..... and I took one of my Savannah kittens... they all like to go out there.... I sat by the creek with Tafari, on our beach, just finally glad to be out of the house.... in the sun. When we went back home, I had like these opalescent "mushroom" things all over my face and neck. I wiped them off, and got a shower and went to bed. The next day I had 1/2" white things sticking out all over me, down to my shoulders! Since then there are more and more. I got the brainstorm to take my black light and have a look and was so shocked to see that I was covered down to the shoulders with the bright white things and some neon yellow things all sticking out 1/2". I spent the night pulling those things off me.... hoping that would get rid of them. RIGHT. They come back again and again... the yellow ones BITE and sting and latch back on so fast...... REALLY creepy! Reality setting in. 3 months ago I passed out for no good reason and really cracked my head ... I went to the ER.... and they found that my liver enzymes were elevated slightly and my sodium was about depleted?? They told me something I never thought I would hear from a Dr..... "go home and eat lots of salt, and don't drink so much water". In hind site, I am re-thinking lots of things. So tonight I found this old 30X lighted hand held microscope that I forgot I had. The splinters that I have collected and the fibers, and all are identical to so many that I have looked at in the last 2 weeks. The big black splinters, on a closer look are iridescent black looking like a dragon face and the body of all of them are twisted sort of like the DNA strand? SO freaky! I have been getting gold glitter looking flecks on me with all these biting and stinging things that I rid myself of at least 2 times a day.... (its like working 2 full time jobs anyway!) I looked at it under this cheap-o microscope, and was shocked to see it was really fuzz that looks like glitter.... with eyes.... like a cocoon... I think maybe they turn into the neon yellow mean guys that bite and fight you the whole way, trying to remove them. I actually had my husband shave them off my back this morning, because it just saves time. There are so many. They are in my ears, my nose, my eyes, and on my tongue..... and the inside of my lower lip, too, which also kicked out a bunch of splinter looking crap. I don't even know what to do. I see how people are treated.... and will not go to a dermatologist about this.... or even my regular Dr. Does anyone know of a Magellan's friendly and knowledgeable Dr. in northern Cali? I live in Redding and am desperate. I have not told even my family other than my husband and 2 grown kids.... and still feel scared that I will pass this on to them? I am new to this... but have been so stuck at home that I have done a ton of on line research. Is there anything I can do to help the sores to heal? The stubborn ones are not healing and kicking out so much junk. 1 and a line of "splinters" 1" long that worked their way up. Today it let me know that it has a lot more space junk in it! Big stuff was coming out the top of it.... when I pressed on it I heard a loud pop.... and it started to bleed 1" above where it is... and 1" bellow, too. That makes whatever is in there about 3 1/2" long. Some came out.... there is a lot more that I am sure will work its way out. The sores are also full of those white "worm" things, but they are stuck in an armor crust. It's a mess. I have no idea what to do from here. so I need your help! I am new to this ugly thing... I'm sure I will be around here. I got some neem oil from out in the garage, but have not used it yet.... I used tea tree oil last night... I don't know how much good it did. I am so desperate and don't know where to turn. HELP!!! Thanks, my brave new friends!
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Post by amron on May 7, 2012 0:07:55 GMT -5
Hi ladykat, I'm so glad you posted, you cant swim this ocean alone. Though at times it seems your so isolated, and tears become your best friend releasing tension, we fellow suffers are with you in spirit.
You have an upbeat personality, and I think morgie wont dampen down your resolve to see this thing through, and help others along the way.
We can identify with you in all the scary aspects of this disease. Its mind boggling to walk this tightrope, blindfolded, with very little personal assistance from medical professionals. You can do it. Northern California gals have stamina. California is seriously toxic, I'm not suprised that you seem to have the whole ball game of emmissions.
Groundhog day movie says alot, keep up the good observations. Bless you amron
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Post by ladykat on May 7, 2012 2:44:05 GMT -5
Thank-U so much, amron.... somehow we will get thru this. I am so new but have been cramming! Learning all I can. What do we do about seeing family? I worry about giving this to anyone that I love.... or even my worst enemy. (well..... maybe would like to share it with whoever thought this one up.) Today, I am a little more hopefull. (what choice do we have, anyway? It is just the weirdest thing I have ever heard of, never mind finding myself in the thick of it! I found a Dr. in China who is actually trying to help people with advise. The link is: www.earthclinic.com/CURES/morgellons_questions.html#Question_3261Maybe you have seen it..... but its something, anyway! Last night I was just crawling..... I hate that feeling! So I showered with the neem oil mixed with Wen shampoo and lavender oil. That stuff STINKS!!! I can taste it and smell it in my hair, but the wicked critters sure hated it! They were biting and stinging untill I mixed some in some face cream and put it all over. It was a quiet night after that! When I got up this morning I could not beleive the crud that was on the surface of my face! REALLY. After seeing that one of them had babies all over it, last night, I decided I should be more careful with it, and put them between tape and a glass picture frame.... just this mornings junk filled up half of an 8 by 10" picture! After finding the chinese Dr, I decided I would soak in a tub full of borax and sea salt, with some epsom salts.... and some ground alfalfa seeds.... I could not beleive the "worms" or whatever those freaky things are, floating all over the top of the water! I think its way more scary after being able to see what I've been pulling out of my skin.... it just looked like slivers, to the naked eye... but behind a microscope... well they are so scary! ALL of them! I can't beleive what they look like and there are so many different ones. What the hell? One looked just like a tiny scorpion.... so many looked like alien dragons with lots and lots of babies in different stages. I never would have dreamed! So tonight... its been a deluge of teal and blue crud... its so weird... they are conected all over the whole side of my face. I would touch one part to get some of it off..... and crap would blow out all over like 5" away, over and over. Then..... all the things that I thought were spider veins started shooting out..... all over.... like 4" long black kinky weird hairs. I noticed flies and mosquito hawks and bugs around me, the normal kind, all evening. I am afraid of spiders and LOTZ of bugs... but it made me wonder if its true that they are attracted to us? If so I hope I get past this... but feel ike the fear is now so validated. Anyway, I am going to get some food grade hydrogen peroxide and have the borax, and going to take that Chinese Dr.'s advice and hit it with that, and follow up with baking soda, to start with, and see if I can knock down the population! It sounds like it has helped lots of people. Anyway, so good to meet you! We will be talking! >^..^<
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Post by tracylove1974 on Jul 17, 2013 1:34:33 GMT -5
I have been fighting a rash, itching for around 3 weeks now. I have used permethrin for scabies and I truly do not believe that I have scabies. I kept wiping my skin down with rubbing alcohol, especially when it felt like something was biting me. I kept getting fuzz, threads, splinters, glitter, and lots of black specks. I just found my microscope from when I was a child. Tomorrow I am going to look at this junk I am getting off of my skin. I have the creepy crawly sensations, scalp itch with no bugs, I have taken baths that were mostly bleach, baking soda, borax, Epsom salt. I have scrubbed my skin with acne cleansers that contain salicylic acids, tea tree and neem oil, acetone, bleach, sea breeze, rubbing alcohol, hand sanitizer, apple cider vinegar, witch hazel, lice shampoo, olive oil. Nothing has made any difference. The rash has spread to my face all over and very close to my eyes. I have not been to a doctor yet because I have no insurance and no income. I live alone and thank goodness for savings or I would be homeless. I don't know what to do and have been mentally exhausted the past few weeks from washing and drying clothes, bedding, towels, taking showers and baths, treatments to my skin and hair, spraying Lysol, spraying lice bedding spray, spraying windex, wiping down everything with bleach and then windex, mopping with bleach. Nothing is making a difference. I have washed, dried, and bagged up all of my clothes, towels, and bedding. Now I have nothing to wear or sleep on or under. This is truly a nightmare and makes me sick to think that the CDC will not really acknowledge this as a problem. I need help. I have not used sulfur ointment or soap, ivermectin, or peppermint oil yet. They are on tomorrow's shopping list. I am about to run out of money and can't get a job anywhere. Now with the way my face looks, living in rural Arkansas, I will get labeled a meth addict.
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Post by amron on Jul 17, 2013 5:36:02 GMT -5
Hi Tracylove, At the beginning anxiety is real natural, and as you go on it will be a familar aspect of this disease. The happenings seem to be otherworldly, frightening, and incomprehensible. I tried it all too, until the board told me to slow down, back up and see that an ounce of prevention in this case, is not worth a pound of cure. I burned the heck out of my skin with removal antidotes. Recovery from my agressive compulsive hurry up reactions, added to long months of mothering my skin back into a reasonable natural state. Then I had to begin again. Morgellons needs peaceful quiet methodic, stratagy of removal. The more excited we get the faster they replicate. Burning the candle at both ends gets us tired, run down and less able to function. We need all the fortitude it takes to follow simple instructions, that come from other suffers, that have survived a one day at a time proccess. Now I'll take my own advice as I freaked out today, and caused my self additional recovery time by rushing at crystal rubbing removal. The toxins are so itchie I get carried away wanting it to stop now. My skin is precious and I need to treat it with more respect. Like for me it is easy does it. Go slow Rome wasnt built in a day. These toxins have been in my body for a long time and my body has done a good job isolating them till this overload. My pep talk to myself is check in with others as I go forward and try new and inovative removal tatics. Bless you, hang close to all post on this board and you will do ok. amron
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