Post by caroltrew on Apr 27, 2012 23:01:18 GMT -5
I'm a new member and have just been reading, listening and learning from everyone. Everyone is so kind and also very smart, it makes me feel very dumb. I thank everyone for their knowledge. I too have been hit hard by this horrible disease. My fifteen yr. relationship is gone down the tubes. We have been living together all these yrs. and now he wants me OUT! I can't be what he wants anymore. Maid, sex object, entertainment, etc. I don't give him enough sex anymore, I have something new everyday, and worse of all he doesn't want to catch it. ( Which I thing is just an excuse,) but never less in this condition, and getting worse every month. I'm first auto immune compromised, RA positive, fibremyliga, disc deterioration, and now Diabetic, along with all the other crazy symptoms everyone else has...I have now put my name on the waiting list for public housing. The fact that I am on disability is the only thing saving me, but going from living comfortably to living off $690.00 a month is going to be crazy. Please those trying to live in the light of Christ as it is given, as I, pray for me if you can remember, and have the time. I am a firm believer in prayer and cannot question rightfully, why and for what purpose this is happening, but to think maybe I'm being punished for living unmarried all these yrs. So if that be it maybe this is for the best, not saying I move out and everything is going to be all better, but at least I'll be doing the right thing after all these yrs. I guess the worst thing is, I feel I've wasted all these yrs. for I too am a 50's child. I believe I was born with this, for I questioned my father, when one time I saw him without his shirt, he was covered in lichen or (scarring I call it,please correct me if wrong,) and he said he had cow pox when he was a child. Anyone heard of this? Or could this have been Morgs. then? And my poor mother had hives? all the time and very weak and poor health all her life. Well I will never know for they have both passed,(like 25 yrs ago!) OMG so young just then in their 50es, as me now. I hope not the same for us all with this now, even tho the suffering is horrid. I too have tried everything, and still trying. It seems things work for awhile and then it builds up a resistance. I'm thinking of trying Diatomaceous Earth. I've heard from Jan Smith's site that is one of the only things that kills these from internally. Colloidal Silver worked well for a while, then I had some kidney pain, so my Dr. said to lay off for about 2 weeks, that sometimes the silver kinda gets hung up in there. I did and my kidneys went back to normal, but when I started back on the Silver it didn't seem to work as well. Not sure about whats happening there. I am lucky to have found good Dr's. who are working with me. It wasn't that way for yrs. tho. I've just started seeing Dr. Neeland Uppal in Pinnallis Fl. I live in Dade City Fl. about an hr. away. She has written a book, which I downloaded for $8.95 or so, on How Safe is Your Pet? She believes that our pets as many other things are Host to this. I'm going back Tues. April 1st to get all my blood work back. There was a lot. If anyone would like to know any more info on her and what her procedures are, I'll let you know. Thank everyone for all their information, without these sights (Proboards, Morgboards, etc.) I would know nothing. Lots of information and lots of smart caring people. Take care all and God Bless.