Post by 0happyday on Jan 17, 2007 3:49:48 GMT -5
I have been trying to get enough nerve to tell my story for a long time. Little did I know that every day that I put it off, the story became longer and longer. If it were not for this forum I may have died without ever telling anyone of the horrific affliction that each and every one of us here, live with every single day.
Not only do we live with it but the people we love the most are more than likely living with it as well. You see this affliction does not discriminate. It doesn’t matter if you are an innocent baby, a little child starting kindergarten, a new mom, or grandparent, not even the cutest puppy you’ve ever seen, anyone can suffer from this. It doesn’t categorize by social class either and as far as age it shows no mercy.
I apologize if this is long but this may be the only way that I can tell this story right now.
I had planned to take these letters that were written on this forum and use as a guideline but I am now shaking all over from just writing the first paragraph. So I’ve decided to post these letters or parts of letters as my story. I may when I am stronger edit and/or add to them, but for now I have to make myself tell my story. I can’t put it off any longer.
.Dear Thinker,
This is the first time I have ever talked on a forum and I'm not sure if there are rules of conduct. If there are could you please let me know? I know I am not as knowledgeable as some of you and I don't want to waste anyone’s time .I have been suffering with this since 2001. I can not tell you how hard it is to tell my story or how hard it was to join this forum. I have lost all trust in the medical community as well as the legal system. In addition to this illness, I have dealt with a divorce, custody, ED, three 50b violations by my ex, his filing chapter seven, 2 days before ED, the loss of my job, being placed on long term disability, and I am now at 47 raising a 6 year old by myself. One of my girlfriends from church died in my guest room, at my home, 4 weeks ago and my child found her. She was 32. I have a 25 year old daughter and 2 grandchildren who stay sick and have allergies and "mosquito bites" as my daughter
says. They (my mother and my daughter) have seen the specks and fibers come out of my skin and stayed in denial until Billy Koch's article. The only 2 people who have not questioned my sanity are my therapist who has advanced Lyme's disease and my Psychiatrist because he knew me before this started. (It took me a year and a half to tell them about this condition because I was so ashamed) I have had 3 episodes where my blood pressure has dropped to 50-60/20 with no medical explanation. I have had around 6 teeth fall out and some removed because they broke off. Before this happened I was a beautiful woman with perfect skin and 2 small scars on my hand. One from a petree dish in the 6th grade, and the other from a clam shucker,
trying to shuck an oyster. I had a heart cath 3 months ago. My vision has deteriorated and now things at a distance are also blurry as well as foggy at times. I have not had a date since I left my husband March 31 2002. I have met with the state entomologist who identified a bug as Collembola and assured me that they don't bite people. I have been treated for Lyme's and completely cleared up and when the test came back negative It was communicated to my therapist that I was psychotic. I have been to one of the top 5 hospitals in the country where I was asked if there was someone who could come get my child if they decided to keep me in psychiatric ward. We (my child and I) were there with our "black lint" that had come off of our skin when I put mosquito repellent on us. The psychiatrist they sent in to talk to me sent us home. I have had 2 of my doctor's send me letters saying they could no longer see me because we disagreed as to my treatment. Terminex put sticky traps in my home and sent them to their entomologist in Columbia SC where they identified Phorid flies. I have done considerable research on my own and I am sad to say that everything that I have predicted with this disease is emerging as possible fact. All together I have seen 4 General Practitioners, 7 dermatologists, 2 medical specialists, a neurologist, 2 Infectious disease Dr's (or so they said.) And been to 4 different hospital emergency rooms. 5 biopsies 3 Prurigo nodularis, 2 pre cancer. I spoke with the CDC when they 1st announced the 800#. I have talked to Parasitologist that I saw on Animal Planet's most extreme. who was on the other side of the country. Was diagnosed as a delusional crack addict at one emergency room and asked why no drugs showed up in my blood or urine, only after their Psychiatric unit had interviewed me and gave me a 2 page article on “The Fiber Disease” NO KIDDING. I don't even drink. I know I've left a lot out, but I don't want to tell this again. I am so tired. I joined this forum because I hope to find a place where I can talk to someone who understands. Oh and I just found out that my daughters father in law has been covered in sores for almost 4 years and my daughter and son-in-law failed to mention that. I have video's of the ? coming out of my skin which my therapist and her husband have watched. I haven't been able to share this with anyone else because it is absolutely horrific. Please tell me if I am at the right place .There are days I think I can't take anymore. I' not afraid to die, but I am afraid of my ex abusing my child again if he ever got to see her, much less try to get her if I was gone. I have registered on the Morgellons site as well as with OSU . Thank you for taking the time to listen.
Sincerely, 0happyday
whiterose,
Thank you so much for the hug. I don't get many of them except from my child and grandchildren. I have a 26 and a 6 year old and 2 grands one will be 7 in Jan and one just turned 3. I have been single for 5 years and I have lost everything I own to keep my child safe from her father. My horse had a hurt leg and needed surgery and instead of
using the money for her leg I gave her to someone and used the money to leave my husband. It was a short marriage. My child and I were diagnosed with PTSD and after 35 years of working and never being out of work, I am now on long term disability. I couldn't tell you what all has happened to me, very few people would believe it. I just gave my 2 daughters horses away 9 months ago and moved closer to my family. My health has gotten so bad that it was all I could do to take care of them. I've been writing for a long time and would like to someday tell my story. the problem is that not only is it so unbelievable, but everytime I start trying to put it together I am faced with either this sickness or shutting down when I have to tell what has happened to me. I have fallen through every crack.
I had gone back to college after 24 years and had to take some time off because I got so sick.
I am very interested in the Infrared and know several very well to do people that I may go to for help. I have never asked for help in my life, but these people have known of my sickness and have been trying to help me find what was wrong with me. I have medicare ins and capped on Part D in July. When I went to SS to try to get Medicaid to get my meds I needed 4900 in unpaid Dr bills. We added up 10K. I have had every test imaginable and a heart cath 3 months ago.
My biggest concern is the people around me whom I love and are in complete denial.
I had a girlfriend from church come stay with me for a week and one morning got up and she was hallucinating. I took her to ER. She was 32 and had several health problems Diabetic, some type of heart condition, and high blood pressure as well as bipolar. After several negative tests and seeing her mental health record with their hospital they decided to put her in the psych ward. I went and got her 1 week later because her mother went to the beach and brought her home with me. Two nights later she died in her sleep and my 6 year old who loved her to death found her. She knew about the Morgellon's and came to stay with me anyway. She showed me a lesion on her finger that she said she had had cut off several times and it kept coming back. It looked just like my lesions.
With everything I have been through, it was the worst day in my life.
My little girl has this too and I can’t talk about it anymore. Please pray for her.
I'm so lost. I'm so tired.
A big hug back at you.
Dear Thinker,
There is no doubt that God led me here. When you speak of the veil
being lifted, this has been in progression for a long time and I
believe that God has revealed things to me in a manner so that with
each revelation it was easier to accept. As far as reading between
he lines, I have seen the signs for some time now. I cut out news
articles, I look at the business sections, the obituaries, world news, l
local news, health news, and the signs are everywhere. I see and have
seen things that no one else sees and I question why they are so
blind or in such denial. Acceptance, this is the greatest challenge
that I have faced and I am still in the process I know.
I've tried to remember how I came to this forum and I can't. It's as if
I woke up one day and I was here. I have written down theories,
and hid them for fear of being committed if anyone read them. I
have questioned my own sanity time after time, for it is so
unbelievably bizarre. More later, my energy is gone.
God bless you Thinker. Your love and support are appreciated
beyond words. Feel free to forward this to Aussie and Whiterose
and whomever you feel needs to hear it.
All of you are my angels, my inspiration, and my lifeline.
Sincerely, 0happyday
Aussie, I need to tell you a story. My friend who died at my home. She had been at my house for a week and on a Sunday morning came in to wake me for church and was hallucinating and so out of it, I did not know what to think only that her diabetes could be a problem That afternoon after she didn’t get better I took her to the ER where they ran every test imaginable and finally put her in the Psych ward. . She had made up a whole life that did not exist. She told me she had a twin sister who committed suicide a year ago and she had a baby by her grandfather who was molesting her, which was taken away at 15. She was working in NY when 9/11 happened and was as convincing as anyone I've ever known. When I took her to the ER and called her mom for specifics about her situations I found out that there was no twin, no baby, she had never been to NY. But no doubt her grandfather HAD sexually abused her. I was devastated that I had taken this girl in and she had made up such lies. It took me 2 days to go to the hospital to confront her. When I did she started to get mad at first and then she hung her head and explained how when she was a little girl and her dad was an alcoholic and was so abusive to her and her mom and other sisters (which was confirmed by her mother) that she wanted and needed attention so badly that she began to make up stories to get attention (also this need for attention set her up for the incest from her grandfather). I had been alone for almost 5 years and through all of this with the MORG I have lost all support from my family. I have even been denied the right to see my grandchildren time and time again. The week before my friend went to the psych ward was the first time in 5 years that I did not feel totally alone. She was funny; she was so good to my little girl and would get her up and take her to school and pick her up and play with her. I have not ever had that help from anyone. So after she admitted her lies I told her that I could not save her but that I could be there to support her and I would be her friend but that I valued honesty and I did not like to be lied to. I told her she didn't need to pretend to be someone else that she was a beautiful person and what a joy she had brought to our lives. By the way she was a pediatric nurse before she became disabled and with all her problems both physical and mental she had been turned down for disability. When my friend was getting out of the hospital her mom who is a nice lady went to the beach and I did not feel like she should be left alone. Let me back up. I go to a very large church where we have 6 ministers. I had been so disturbed by her lies and what to do; I went to two of our pastors and asked for advice. Both of them told me to take her back to her apartment where she lived alone. I just could not do it. On the morning that we found her dead I went into shock, she was cold and blue and stiff and I went in 3 times thinking this is not happening. I called my nearest girlfriend to come help with my child because I was so afraid for her since she already suffered from PTSD and had tried for 5 minutes to wake her before coming to get me to tell me she would not wake up. I just told my daughter to shhh, like I didn't want us to wake her. I didn't know what else to do. My mom freaked out and told me I had to call 911 and I told her I wasn’t calling anyone until someone else was there to help with my child. So my mom called my oldest daughter who use to be a 911 operator and she called 911. When I finally did call them they told me to start CPR. I kept telling them it was too late. But I again questioned this nightmare and went in again and rolled her over again. I will never get this vision out of my mind and I am constantly haunted by it. When the first paramedic ran in with his pads in each hand and rushed into the room like he was going to save her, I will never forget the way he came out of the room and looked at me with the pads still in the same position with this blank stare as he looked at me and could not say a word. They called my two pastors who arrived before they removed her body and when they came in and both sat beside me on the couch the first thing they said was "We are so glad you did not listen to us, she didn't have to die alone." I think this says it all.
Please feel free to forward this to whomever you see fit. I love you guys.
Shoshanna,
If I sounded
selfish I didn't mean to. I don't take care of myself I know because
I've always had to take care of everyone else. I told someone
recently that I was so busy saving the world I never learned how to
save myself. I admire you so much for what you are doing and all
the hard work you have put in to this nightmare. I meant that I'm
here for you and I want to help. I just need you to know that there
are days that I can hardly get out of bed, some days are the
Morgellons and some of those days are depression. I will be here
for you! Sincerely and Thank You for taking the time to speak with me.
0happyday
Second letter:
I don't mean to sound stupid but what does it mean by a new thread? You have to remember this is my first time. HA HA and if you don't mind can you tell me what the icons on the left of each thread mean?
I had to take a little time away from here. I am just overwhelmed by all of this. I have looked for so long to find out what was wrong with me, and all along fighting tooth and nail with family, doctors and friends who said I was delusional. I am actually very depressed right now and getting behind on all the things I need to do. There's no one else to help. And my child is very needy. Thank you so much for all who are there. I have felt so alone for so long, but I have continued to thank God for all that I do have and know that he has a purpose for everything. I know I am a fighter and so does He. I also know that he knows I will do what ever He leads me to do to fight for the cause. I just have to make sure I don't let satan get in the way.
Abuse is not OK
« Thread Started on Nov 25, 2006, 5:49pm »
________________________________________
I wrote this about the time my symptoms started. little did I know that I would also be abused by the "medical community". My greatest sorrow is seeing what this is doing to my children and grandchildren.
Terrorism in ////////// County
Yes it can be a joke. It depends on how you look at it. The F.B.I.'s definition of terrorism is "a person who intentionally threatens one or more people with the purpose of causing fear." This is a subject that not many want to talk about, and very few people acknowledge. Yet it will affect each and every one of us at some point in our lives.
There are people in our community, whether children, women, men, parents, that suffer from terrorism every day. But, for some reason we ignore it. We have a choice, we can turn our heads, our backs, close our eyes, or look the other way. We can try to forget about it, pretend it's not happening, or simply lie to ourselves. Or, we can stand up and be accountable! Because the cold hard facts are, "ABUSE EXISTS", whether it's verbal, mental, emotional, sexual, spiritual, or physical. Again let me say, in case you have already forgotten or chose to ignore it, "ABUSE EXISTS". And everytime we choose not to acknowledge it, we are allowing it to continue and affect the people we love.
We are saying, "OK, go ahead, abuse again, and let me show my children it's OK to abuse and to be abused, to allow others to be abused." For every time we choose to ignore it we send a message, ABUSE IS OK.
Abuse is terrorism in its purest form. You have a choice no matter who you are, the /////////// County Sheriffs Dept., the church pastor, the garbage collector, the president of the bank, or a member of the ladies auxiliary. WE HAVE A GOD GIVEN RIGHT TO TEACH OUR CHILDREN, ABUSE IS NOT OK.
0happyday
Not only do we live with it but the people we love the most are more than likely living with it as well. You see this affliction does not discriminate. It doesn’t matter if you are an innocent baby, a little child starting kindergarten, a new mom, or grandparent, not even the cutest puppy you’ve ever seen, anyone can suffer from this. It doesn’t categorize by social class either and as far as age it shows no mercy.
I apologize if this is long but this may be the only way that I can tell this story right now.
I had planned to take these letters that were written on this forum and use as a guideline but I am now shaking all over from just writing the first paragraph. So I’ve decided to post these letters or parts of letters as my story. I may when I am stronger edit and/or add to them, but for now I have to make myself tell my story. I can’t put it off any longer.
.Dear Thinker,
This is the first time I have ever talked on a forum and I'm not sure if there are rules of conduct. If there are could you please let me know? I know I am not as knowledgeable as some of you and I don't want to waste anyone’s time .I have been suffering with this since 2001. I can not tell you how hard it is to tell my story or how hard it was to join this forum. I have lost all trust in the medical community as well as the legal system. In addition to this illness, I have dealt with a divorce, custody, ED, three 50b violations by my ex, his filing chapter seven, 2 days before ED, the loss of my job, being placed on long term disability, and I am now at 47 raising a 6 year old by myself. One of my girlfriends from church died in my guest room, at my home, 4 weeks ago and my child found her. She was 32. I have a 25 year old daughter and 2 grandchildren who stay sick and have allergies and "mosquito bites" as my daughter
says. They (my mother and my daughter) have seen the specks and fibers come out of my skin and stayed in denial until Billy Koch's article. The only 2 people who have not questioned my sanity are my therapist who has advanced Lyme's disease and my Psychiatrist because he knew me before this started. (It took me a year and a half to tell them about this condition because I was so ashamed) I have had 3 episodes where my blood pressure has dropped to 50-60/20 with no medical explanation. I have had around 6 teeth fall out and some removed because they broke off. Before this happened I was a beautiful woman with perfect skin and 2 small scars on my hand. One from a petree dish in the 6th grade, and the other from a clam shucker,
trying to shuck an oyster. I had a heart cath 3 months ago. My vision has deteriorated and now things at a distance are also blurry as well as foggy at times. I have not had a date since I left my husband March 31 2002. I have met with the state entomologist who identified a bug as Collembola and assured me that they don't bite people. I have been treated for Lyme's and completely cleared up and when the test came back negative It was communicated to my therapist that I was psychotic. I have been to one of the top 5 hospitals in the country where I was asked if there was someone who could come get my child if they decided to keep me in psychiatric ward. We (my child and I) were there with our "black lint" that had come off of our skin when I put mosquito repellent on us. The psychiatrist they sent in to talk to me sent us home. I have had 2 of my doctor's send me letters saying they could no longer see me because we disagreed as to my treatment. Terminex put sticky traps in my home and sent them to their entomologist in Columbia SC where they identified Phorid flies. I have done considerable research on my own and I am sad to say that everything that I have predicted with this disease is emerging as possible fact. All together I have seen 4 General Practitioners, 7 dermatologists, 2 medical specialists, a neurologist, 2 Infectious disease Dr's (or so they said.) And been to 4 different hospital emergency rooms. 5 biopsies 3 Prurigo nodularis, 2 pre cancer. I spoke with the CDC when they 1st announced the 800#. I have talked to Parasitologist that I saw on Animal Planet's most extreme. who was on the other side of the country. Was diagnosed as a delusional crack addict at one emergency room and asked why no drugs showed up in my blood or urine, only after their Psychiatric unit had interviewed me and gave me a 2 page article on “The Fiber Disease” NO KIDDING. I don't even drink. I know I've left a lot out, but I don't want to tell this again. I am so tired. I joined this forum because I hope to find a place where I can talk to someone who understands. Oh and I just found out that my daughters father in law has been covered in sores for almost 4 years and my daughter and son-in-law failed to mention that. I have video's of the ? coming out of my skin which my therapist and her husband have watched. I haven't been able to share this with anyone else because it is absolutely horrific. Please tell me if I am at the right place .There are days I think I can't take anymore. I' not afraid to die, but I am afraid of my ex abusing my child again if he ever got to see her, much less try to get her if I was gone. I have registered on the Morgellons site as well as with OSU . Thank you for taking the time to listen.
Sincerely, 0happyday
whiterose,
Thank you so much for the hug. I don't get many of them except from my child and grandchildren. I have a 26 and a 6 year old and 2 grands one will be 7 in Jan and one just turned 3. I have been single for 5 years and I have lost everything I own to keep my child safe from her father. My horse had a hurt leg and needed surgery and instead of
using the money for her leg I gave her to someone and used the money to leave my husband. It was a short marriage. My child and I were diagnosed with PTSD and after 35 years of working and never being out of work, I am now on long term disability. I couldn't tell you what all has happened to me, very few people would believe it. I just gave my 2 daughters horses away 9 months ago and moved closer to my family. My health has gotten so bad that it was all I could do to take care of them. I've been writing for a long time and would like to someday tell my story. the problem is that not only is it so unbelievable, but everytime I start trying to put it together I am faced with either this sickness or shutting down when I have to tell what has happened to me. I have fallen through every crack.
I had gone back to college after 24 years and had to take some time off because I got so sick.
I am very interested in the Infrared and know several very well to do people that I may go to for help. I have never asked for help in my life, but these people have known of my sickness and have been trying to help me find what was wrong with me. I have medicare ins and capped on Part D in July. When I went to SS to try to get Medicaid to get my meds I needed 4900 in unpaid Dr bills. We added up 10K. I have had every test imaginable and a heart cath 3 months ago.
My biggest concern is the people around me whom I love and are in complete denial.
I had a girlfriend from church come stay with me for a week and one morning got up and she was hallucinating. I took her to ER. She was 32 and had several health problems Diabetic, some type of heart condition, and high blood pressure as well as bipolar. After several negative tests and seeing her mental health record with their hospital they decided to put her in the psych ward. I went and got her 1 week later because her mother went to the beach and brought her home with me. Two nights later she died in her sleep and my 6 year old who loved her to death found her. She knew about the Morgellon's and came to stay with me anyway. She showed me a lesion on her finger that she said she had had cut off several times and it kept coming back. It looked just like my lesions.
With everything I have been through, it was the worst day in my life.
My little girl has this too and I can’t talk about it anymore. Please pray for her.
I'm so lost. I'm so tired.
A big hug back at you.
Dear Thinker,
There is no doubt that God led me here. When you speak of the veil
being lifted, this has been in progression for a long time and I
believe that God has revealed things to me in a manner so that with
each revelation it was easier to accept. As far as reading between
he lines, I have seen the signs for some time now. I cut out news
articles, I look at the business sections, the obituaries, world news, l
local news, health news, and the signs are everywhere. I see and have
seen things that no one else sees and I question why they are so
blind or in such denial. Acceptance, this is the greatest challenge
that I have faced and I am still in the process I know.
I've tried to remember how I came to this forum and I can't. It's as if
I woke up one day and I was here. I have written down theories,
and hid them for fear of being committed if anyone read them. I
have questioned my own sanity time after time, for it is so
unbelievably bizarre. More later, my energy is gone.
God bless you Thinker. Your love and support are appreciated
beyond words. Feel free to forward this to Aussie and Whiterose
and whomever you feel needs to hear it.
All of you are my angels, my inspiration, and my lifeline.
Sincerely, 0happyday
Aussie, I need to tell you a story. My friend who died at my home. She had been at my house for a week and on a Sunday morning came in to wake me for church and was hallucinating and so out of it, I did not know what to think only that her diabetes could be a problem That afternoon after she didn’t get better I took her to the ER where they ran every test imaginable and finally put her in the Psych ward. . She had made up a whole life that did not exist. She told me she had a twin sister who committed suicide a year ago and she had a baby by her grandfather who was molesting her, which was taken away at 15. She was working in NY when 9/11 happened and was as convincing as anyone I've ever known. When I took her to the ER and called her mom for specifics about her situations I found out that there was no twin, no baby, she had never been to NY. But no doubt her grandfather HAD sexually abused her. I was devastated that I had taken this girl in and she had made up such lies. It took me 2 days to go to the hospital to confront her. When I did she started to get mad at first and then she hung her head and explained how when she was a little girl and her dad was an alcoholic and was so abusive to her and her mom and other sisters (which was confirmed by her mother) that she wanted and needed attention so badly that she began to make up stories to get attention (also this need for attention set her up for the incest from her grandfather). I had been alone for almost 5 years and through all of this with the MORG I have lost all support from my family. I have even been denied the right to see my grandchildren time and time again. The week before my friend went to the psych ward was the first time in 5 years that I did not feel totally alone. She was funny; she was so good to my little girl and would get her up and take her to school and pick her up and play with her. I have not ever had that help from anyone. So after she admitted her lies I told her that I could not save her but that I could be there to support her and I would be her friend but that I valued honesty and I did not like to be lied to. I told her she didn't need to pretend to be someone else that she was a beautiful person and what a joy she had brought to our lives. By the way she was a pediatric nurse before she became disabled and with all her problems both physical and mental she had been turned down for disability. When my friend was getting out of the hospital her mom who is a nice lady went to the beach and I did not feel like she should be left alone. Let me back up. I go to a very large church where we have 6 ministers. I had been so disturbed by her lies and what to do; I went to two of our pastors and asked for advice. Both of them told me to take her back to her apartment where she lived alone. I just could not do it. On the morning that we found her dead I went into shock, she was cold and blue and stiff and I went in 3 times thinking this is not happening. I called my nearest girlfriend to come help with my child because I was so afraid for her since she already suffered from PTSD and had tried for 5 minutes to wake her before coming to get me to tell me she would not wake up. I just told my daughter to shhh, like I didn't want us to wake her. I didn't know what else to do. My mom freaked out and told me I had to call 911 and I told her I wasn’t calling anyone until someone else was there to help with my child. So my mom called my oldest daughter who use to be a 911 operator and she called 911. When I finally did call them they told me to start CPR. I kept telling them it was too late. But I again questioned this nightmare and went in again and rolled her over again. I will never get this vision out of my mind and I am constantly haunted by it. When the first paramedic ran in with his pads in each hand and rushed into the room like he was going to save her, I will never forget the way he came out of the room and looked at me with the pads still in the same position with this blank stare as he looked at me and could not say a word. They called my two pastors who arrived before they removed her body and when they came in and both sat beside me on the couch the first thing they said was "We are so glad you did not listen to us, she didn't have to die alone." I think this says it all.
Please feel free to forward this to whomever you see fit. I love you guys.
Shoshanna,
If I sounded
selfish I didn't mean to. I don't take care of myself I know because
I've always had to take care of everyone else. I told someone
recently that I was so busy saving the world I never learned how to
save myself. I admire you so much for what you are doing and all
the hard work you have put in to this nightmare. I meant that I'm
here for you and I want to help. I just need you to know that there
are days that I can hardly get out of bed, some days are the
Morgellons and some of those days are depression. I will be here
for you! Sincerely and Thank You for taking the time to speak with me.
0happyday
Second letter:
I don't mean to sound stupid but what does it mean by a new thread? You have to remember this is my first time. HA HA and if you don't mind can you tell me what the icons on the left of each thread mean?
I had to take a little time away from here. I am just overwhelmed by all of this. I have looked for so long to find out what was wrong with me, and all along fighting tooth and nail with family, doctors and friends who said I was delusional. I am actually very depressed right now and getting behind on all the things I need to do. There's no one else to help. And my child is very needy. Thank you so much for all who are there. I have felt so alone for so long, but I have continued to thank God for all that I do have and know that he has a purpose for everything. I know I am a fighter and so does He. I also know that he knows I will do what ever He leads me to do to fight for the cause. I just have to make sure I don't let satan get in the way.
Abuse is not OK
« Thread Started on Nov 25, 2006, 5:49pm »
________________________________________
I wrote this about the time my symptoms started. little did I know that I would also be abused by the "medical community". My greatest sorrow is seeing what this is doing to my children and grandchildren.
Terrorism in ////////// County
Yes it can be a joke. It depends on how you look at it. The F.B.I.'s definition of terrorism is "a person who intentionally threatens one or more people with the purpose of causing fear." This is a subject that not many want to talk about, and very few people acknowledge. Yet it will affect each and every one of us at some point in our lives.
There are people in our community, whether children, women, men, parents, that suffer from terrorism every day. But, for some reason we ignore it. We have a choice, we can turn our heads, our backs, close our eyes, or look the other way. We can try to forget about it, pretend it's not happening, or simply lie to ourselves. Or, we can stand up and be accountable! Because the cold hard facts are, "ABUSE EXISTS", whether it's verbal, mental, emotional, sexual, spiritual, or physical. Again let me say, in case you have already forgotten or chose to ignore it, "ABUSE EXISTS". And everytime we choose not to acknowledge it, we are allowing it to continue and affect the people we love.
We are saying, "OK, go ahead, abuse again, and let me show my children it's OK to abuse and to be abused, to allow others to be abused." For every time we choose to ignore it we send a message, ABUSE IS OK.
Abuse is terrorism in its purest form. You have a choice no matter who you are, the /////////// County Sheriffs Dept., the church pastor, the garbage collector, the president of the bank, or a member of the ladies auxiliary. WE HAVE A GOD GIVEN RIGHT TO TEACH OUR CHILDREN, ABUSE IS NOT OK.
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