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Post by whiterose on Nov 6, 2006 17:44:15 GMT -5
Are we holding our breath for the election or is it something else?
whiterose
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Post by sarahconnor on Jan 28, 2007 23:17:07 GMT -5
I'm not interested in any election, but I can tell you NOW why I have been holding my breath (also I need to vent, talk, or I will burst).
My blood tests I received on the 4th January 2007 stated I was between 4 - 5 weeks pregnant.
Appointment with GP on the 8th January, 2007. I was DENIAD an ultrasound scan. Told to speak with the hospital pregnancy advisory clinic first. NO physical examination performed.
15th January 2007 I saw a dr at the hospital, who said I was approximately 8 weeks pregnant, and that my current chronic illness (Rickettsia) was sort of an "unknown" as to how it would effect the baby. But firstly, he said, I had to decide whether I wanted the baby (taking everything into account; my social situation, living conditions, supportive partner etc).
Today 29th January, 2007 appointment at the hospital to see a physician. I was actually planning a termination of pregnancy. Rather strange you know I felt rather good this morning, and looked the best I have in ages, once I arrived at the hospital I felt so violently ill. Hot sweets, nausea, and just wanted to burst into tears. Anyway cut a long story short, it was terrible this morning, I had diarrhoea, and was stripped half naked in the public toilet sweating and feeling so ill, and I was waiting to see the doctor, which took forever (and I was on my OWN).
BOMB Shell here is - I found out today that I am at least 23 weeks pregnant. I am over the half way mark. This abusive medical system has ripped away 5 and a half months of my pregnancy. Unfortunately it is too late for me to have tests performed for Down Syndrome, I am now considered an urgent case at the hospital. The doctor I saw today was lovely, mature aged maybe 60. She gave me so much praise for my decisions today, and acknowledged how difificult my situation is and that this is a very complicated pregnancy, she held my hand and said "you will be feeling very tired from this day on and you will get much more tired".
I can not find words to describe the emotions I am going through, my complete and utter disbelief at such a major stuff up. My family are speech less, purely because of the incompetence of my treating doctors, how it all falls into place for ALL of us. And yet, I am still strong, level headed and fighting more than ever. But I am a human being and the pain of such emotional hurt for many years brought about by this useless medical system and government is criminal.
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Post by lauri on Jan 29, 2007 13:55:25 GMT -5
I'm sorry....I learned a long time ago that doctors are human and make huge mistakes everyday....maybe something good will yet come out of your personal situation. I hope and pray so! Lauri
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Post by mfromcanada on Jan 29, 2007 15:20:31 GMT -5
sarahconner, I can't believe this has happened to you and it is a terrible shame. Now you can't have the anmnio test. I think you are really upset because now, even if it tunred out to have down syndrome you would not have the option to terminate the pregnancy. It is terrible that you have been treated with such incompetance. It bothers me when mistakes like this affect peoples lives so deeply. I had an amnio done for the same reason and it made me feel more confident. Is the rickettssia diagnosis in addition to morgellons or is it something diffferent? I don't mind if you vent on this board at all. We are all here for support and I feel for you that you now have to go through this without the knowledge you would have liked prior.
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Post by sarahconnor on Jan 29, 2007 15:21:59 GMT -5
I agree Lauri, yes doctors are human and make mistakes also. Such a pity they HAVE NOT treated me like a human being, that is the big difference here.
I tell myself, this has happened for a reason, whatelse can I do, but move forward with hope and keep the faith, thanks.
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Post by sarahconnor on Jan 29, 2007 15:25:22 GMT -5
Thanks mfromcanada, Yes I have heard that amnio is not performed anymore due to high risk of miscarriage. My family are already on the case, they are prepared to pay whoever, whatever to get some sort of tests done to check for birth defects. My dad said he can not cope with the fact that I could worry myself silly during the rest of the pregnancy, as it is so unfair to me. What would I do without my loving family? Thanks again.
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Post by Admin on Jan 29, 2007 15:25:25 GMT -5
Somehow a power greater than our own seems to be in charge here - and the lovely older lady doctor! What a gift.
Did she give you a number to call if you feel in trouble? I would be sure you know how to reach her directly.....and I'll bet anything she will be available to you.
What I am 'seeing' (and I hope you don't deem me dilusional!) is that this little one is determined to be in your presence and share your life - What else, when he/she has been so stealth, knowing how upset you've been - and (I feel it is a she, by the way!) - knowing that your decision would be oh-so-hard to make, he/'she' made it for you.
Medicals? Certainly not what we would wish, but sounds to me like it's time to settle in and concentrate on building a healthy and loved little one in there.
More will be revealed, and d**ned if fate will not have its way with us!
Blessings and all love, Shohsanna (Always here for you!)
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Post by sarahconnor on Jan 29, 2007 15:43:13 GMT -5
Thank you Sho, I am ok really. I feel confident. How funny you say it is a girl, I have been thinking the same thing!!!
I am being "guided" by one of the best in the business - my late Grandad. Thank you.
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Post by sophie on Jan 29, 2007 19:53:55 GMT -5
Dear Sarah I am so sorry rthat you are going through this (extra) turmoil. Please feel free to offloud to me at any time! I am a good listener and a used to do it professionally before my life went skewiff... Do you have a partner? Like you saID everything happens for a reason and maybe this situation will be the one to boost you forward with extra power, strength and resilience! I believe that the big alien M was in a warped way my gift from above as it has forced some conclusions and belated considerations which may have floated indefinitely and I would have regretted that more. Did you assume any hints were related to the R thing or the evil M? Or maybe it is more positive to call it alien M!
Look after yourself, take a deep breath, trust in the un iverse and let it happen ("so what:? I"ll handle it!", love yourself and let yourself receive love...
love from nyc
sophie xxx
(jupiter the american bulldog brindle pitbull who also has the M waves a fur eaten paw and headbuts a hair worn nse at you with love wuff)
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Post by sophie on Jan 29, 2007 19:54:59 GMT -5
I think she's a girl too
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Post by sarahconnor on Jan 30, 2007 0:22:54 GMT -5
Oh Sophie I am having a good giggle here, thank you so much.
You know I have taken the very attitude that you have suggested - "trust in the universe and let it happen etc"
So far I think the "M" thing has had a bit to do with whatever has happened to me, I don't try hard these days to find the answers. I don't think it is a good thing for me to want to know everything about life and the universe. I prefer to leave a lot of the stuff to our great creator. There is certainly a greater force at work, I can now say this with confidence, purely because I have never experienced anything like this in my life. It doesn't scare me anymore. I do not feel pressured by rules and guidelines like I once did. I prefer to just take the simple road, nice and easy does it. Materialistic things, money, power - doesn't bring happiness to people, they just want more.
Love and harmony is free, and we have it within ourselves already, you just have to find it, and when you do, you will never ever let it go.
P.S. I heard the heartbeat of my baby today for the first time. The doctor had a big smile and said "that's a baby alright, and a very healthy heart beat too"!!! I feel a glow within!
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