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Post by Awake on Mar 30, 2008 19:18:35 GMT -5
Hello-> This is really beginning to get me down, it certainly did today. I am only 20 and all ready this has lead me to leaving collage due to problems with concentrating and tiredness. i was doing i high level course in information Tec, but thats all over now and i could not go back again. I live with my parents and i am sure they have this disease as well. it as also affected my coordination and balance it seems. Today was difficult as i did not get a lot of sleep due to the scratching and pinching in my skin. The memory problems just seem to get worse as well. I have also been given antidepressant tablets about two weeks ago - that is no surprise to me. Just how do i approach this when people around me just think i am depressed. i don't think i can coupe like this. It seems to be taking my life away day by day and theirs noting i can do about it. it seems to be designed to do this in a very sinister way. can any one help me out?
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Post by Awake on Apr 1, 2008 14:07:26 GMT -5
Thank you for your input, booniesboy I am now under the impression that this is the only place i can talk about this and everywhere else as proven useless. I can't even explain this to my own family even tho i think they have it as well. last timei tried to talk about this i was threatened to be disconnected from the internet because they thought it was causing my problems!! i have not said nothing since just to keep my connection. IT just amazes me the reactions i get from people in trying to explain i have this disease. it is just really difficult to do anything on any day and i used to study physics and programming but i have lost nearly all interest especially since i left collage. All i seem to do now is study this disease every night and try to gather information on it. I have even got a small microscope which has a zoom range of 100x to 300x magnification which i use to look at the synthetic hair and other micro sized things that come out of the skin.
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Post by bygraceofgod on Apr 2, 2008 13:03:23 GMT -5
You know what you see and that's the truth. If everyone had a microscope, we would be farther along by now.
I have experienced the same difficulties with the denial of others. I have been very hurt by the people who were closest to me, who know I don't lie, but take the fast track to Easy Street in the town of Disbelief. I have long pondered their reasoning and have reach the conclusion that I have not a clue why they don't have a clue - even those who you clearly see have it themselves!
I have one friend who stuck with me and has seen every horrid aspect of this. The other friends I have made as a result of being ill.
You already know who you can talk to and who you can't. Place yourself in the appropriate spot with these people and do not irratate those who have authority over you.
Like all of us, you have been diagnosed with delusional parisititis. The type of meds they gave are of concern to me. I have been given anti-psychotics twice, have tried them just as a possible means of calming my body, but they actually put me into a more catatonic state where, in time, I could not complain about anything. I call this the shut-up and shut-down method of treatment. Be careful.
Look at the symptom list as many times as you have to, to accept that what you are experiencing is what we all experience. And it is depressing. Read and re-read that list.
Rest assured that you are not alone and not crazy. You are in fact alive and awake and through your Frain Bog, you see clearly.
I was in a wheelchair for 1-1/2 years, stuttering out word salad and peeing on myself. I am a living breathing miracle in coming back from the brink of death 3 times. I know how bad this can get, but most importantly, I know you can heal.
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Post by Awake on Apr 7, 2008 10:10:54 GMT -5
I find the magnitude and potential of this disease very alarming. looking at the symptom list I am horrified and in disbelief of my own suffering and that of others.
I find it very difficult to come to terms with knowing this as been done deliberately by very evil people in places of power and control. Only pure evil genius could have put something together this precise and horrifying and at the same time stealthy.
By virtue of design it is made to isolate and make a person the center of ridicule by family and doctors alike. IT is a complete abomination of what it means to be human and alive. The strain on my thought and memory is worsening all the time and i know this thing is systemic and affects all body systems including the brain. It literally eats you alive by replacing parts of the body with it's self. To what end i am not sure. The way it is spreading it will be worldwide very soon with millions possibly billions affected.
I can't help but feel angry for the people who did this to us; because it's obvious that this is no natural creation.
I wish you all peace form this horrid disease
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