Post by firedup on May 24, 2011 12:44:47 GMT -5
MORGELLONS NO ESCAPE
There is simply no way to escape from it. Its intent is to strip you of your life as you know it. It strips away your peace of mind by tormenting you day and night. You can’t focus on normal things because it demands your attention. You are overcome by the constant crawling, stinging, itching, biting sensation. Your body and mind have been seized and invaded by the unknown. You become obsessed with finding a remedy. You seek doctor’s help, and you are rejected and rendered mentally disturbed. You are forced to find your own way of bearing it. You find means of temporary relief, but no cure. You take four or five baths a day, maybe more. You scrub your body. You claw your body. You scream and you cry. You curl up in a fetal position on your bed and you travail. You beg God for mercy, for relief.
Gradually, you begin to change. Something deep within you begins to die and life as you know it begins to sloth away. You can’t focus on living as you used to. It has taken away your comfort. It has taken away your joy. It has taken away your peace. You begin to realize that you are not in the right sense of yourself. Your mind seems distant or scrambled. You feel the crawling sensations inside your brain, and it feels fuzzy. You feel dizzy. You can’t remember if you did things or didn’t do them. You lose your sense of direction. Is this where I turn, or is it the next road? You can’t remember everything people say to you. You only remember the first part of what they said, or the last part. I can’t remember what was I saying? What were we just talking about? And you realize that it has gotten into your brain.
But you have to go on. You have to work. You hide your torment deep within, and you hope that no one notices the sores and scars on your body. You wear long sleeves to cover up. You seek to confide in a close family member or friend, and you are ignored, mocked, and put aside. You have no one to talk to, and no one to help. You become distant and withdrawn, and this is when you begin to lose interest in living. You begin to retrench as a result of mental and physical exhaustion. You cease going and doing things that you used to look forward to. You choose to stay home in bed. You really don’t care what people think or say about you. You just don’t go there anymore. It’s insignificant and irrelevant to your present position. You are becoming aware of toxic people and situations that bog you down, and you are removing them from your life. Your mind is in a different place, a quiet place, a dark place. Eventually, your soul begins to yield, and you begin to accept your affliction. It has integrated with your soul. You have become a different person. In most cases everything is lost including, job, home, status, security, money, family, friends, etc, and you find yourself plunged into the depths of a deep, dark hole in which there is no way of escape. All is lost and you now find yourself alone in the wilderness “That which is not controllable by humans.”
There is simply no way to escape from it. Its intent is to strip you of your life as you know it. It strips away your peace of mind by tormenting you day and night. You can’t focus on normal things because it demands your attention. You are overcome by the constant crawling, stinging, itching, biting sensation. Your body and mind have been seized and invaded by the unknown. You become obsessed with finding a remedy. You seek doctor’s help, and you are rejected and rendered mentally disturbed. You are forced to find your own way of bearing it. You find means of temporary relief, but no cure. You take four or five baths a day, maybe more. You scrub your body. You claw your body. You scream and you cry. You curl up in a fetal position on your bed and you travail. You beg God for mercy, for relief.
Gradually, you begin to change. Something deep within you begins to die and life as you know it begins to sloth away. You can’t focus on living as you used to. It has taken away your comfort. It has taken away your joy. It has taken away your peace. You begin to realize that you are not in the right sense of yourself. Your mind seems distant or scrambled. You feel the crawling sensations inside your brain, and it feels fuzzy. You feel dizzy. You can’t remember if you did things or didn’t do them. You lose your sense of direction. Is this where I turn, or is it the next road? You can’t remember everything people say to you. You only remember the first part of what they said, or the last part. I can’t remember what was I saying? What were we just talking about? And you realize that it has gotten into your brain.
But you have to go on. You have to work. You hide your torment deep within, and you hope that no one notices the sores and scars on your body. You wear long sleeves to cover up. You seek to confide in a close family member or friend, and you are ignored, mocked, and put aside. You have no one to talk to, and no one to help. You become distant and withdrawn, and this is when you begin to lose interest in living. You begin to retrench as a result of mental and physical exhaustion. You cease going and doing things that you used to look forward to. You choose to stay home in bed. You really don’t care what people think or say about you. You just don’t go there anymore. It’s insignificant and irrelevant to your present position. You are becoming aware of toxic people and situations that bog you down, and you are removing them from your life. Your mind is in a different place, a quiet place, a dark place. Eventually, your soul begins to yield, and you begin to accept your affliction. It has integrated with your soul. You have become a different person. In most cases everything is lost including, job, home, status, security, money, family, friends, etc, and you find yourself plunged into the depths of a deep, dark hole in which there is no way of escape. All is lost and you now find yourself alone in the wilderness “That which is not controllable by humans.”