Post by tanya on Mar 7, 2010 7:10:04 GMT -5
Does any one know of any doctors in and around Modesto, CA that I can go to for some type of treatment. I have already been put through hell and them some by a local dermatologist along with his UCSF buddy. I cry every day. Never leave my house. And think about the end of me everyday.
I can't live like this anymore and i have a 17 yr old son going to uc Irvine next year and a 23 year old daughter in grand school. but i am truly alone. so one really understands or cares to.i too live in California. i will travel anywhere for help. any luck with the doctors mentioned? I'm scared of getting scammed.
I'm also so tired of living this way and want to go to sleep until they figure it all out and make it go away which seems to be never. i cry everyday and live in isolation. i am missing out on so much of the life i have - death - I'm a living dead so why not just be.......
i am freaking out again - the worms poking and coming out of my face are toooo much to handle. its happening again and of course I'm alone as always even when there here. i losing it. its too much. someone please help me . I'm in the midst of losing it. i feel sick and so creeped out. i hate myself so much and wonder and ask what terrible thing did i do in life to be punished like this. i believe in god even tho my family goes to church - i quit - how can there be a god when all i experience everyday is this loneliness, isolation and hell
i am freaking out again - the worms poking and coming out of my face are toooo much to handle. its happening again and of course I'm alone as always even when there here. i losing it. its too much. someone please help me
I thought it was just me. I have had and still may have the glass like shards in my hand, one on my face that i thought was just a small bump but opened up wide to a nickel size spread of the glass like substance - right on my cheek - bright as day and hard - which then eventually decided to sprout a (I'm getting sick thinking of it) worm, which I totally freaked, and while having a nervous break down extracted it and then right after the group on my neck and lower cheek. If the lesion was open they would pop out for a quick view (a least the two I thought and tried to tell someone I had).
Low and behold in the same area, the day, about the same time one tried to pop out through unbroken skin and as I looked in the mirror and saw this large lump protruding on my face. i had no idea how worse it was going to get and got.....when i saw this, of course i knew what I had to do...... which was to gave him or her a little help (no way was i going to let them be all comfy, cozy and warm under my skin) But what I ended up finding was a large group of these so called words partying it up in there under my skin. I continued my nervous breakdown, screaming, crying hysterically and so creeped out wanting to throw up and oh soo soo alone. I was home alone when it started and even though my son and husband came home I was still so totally alone but this time with the extra pain of not being acknowledged and ignored. They went to bed and I was left with the sickening thought of more of these things coming out during my sleep. It has been the worst part and I am so afraid to even touch my skin, it makes me sick. I constantly worry they are creeping out again and forever keep looking in the mirror hoping for none.
the hair issue is one i dealt with in the beginning. i have long brown hair and thought it was coming from my head each time i washed my hair. I hate hair. I was dumbfounded each time i took a shower and kept finding hair all twisted up and yes i did see it move. it took a while but i finally figured it out is was coming from somewhere on my back.
And yes I too saw things come right through my skin and evaporate into my skin - I thought I was seeing things at first when I would see black specks melt into my skin. Two weeks ago I was going to take my son to San Francisco for the day. I decided to use my regular antibacterial soap vs. the peppermint & menthol cleanser. I felt fine getting in but when i got out I didn't feel right and started to feel itchy & when i looked down at my body - there was so much of everything (except the worms) all over me and not stopping so I had to jump back in and take another with the peppermint soap which worked but didn't work for my poor soon who I couldn't take to SF. He was devastated.
Thank you for confirming that I am not crazy, there is something that hurts and feels like glass, there is pieces of hair that look like their tied up in the middle and about those worms?
one more ugly thing about me, I have scars everywhere.
I can't live like this anymore and i have a 17 yr old son going to uc Irvine next year and a 23 year old daughter in grand school. but i am truly alone. so one really understands or cares to.i too live in California. i will travel anywhere for help. any luck with the doctors mentioned? I'm scared of getting scammed.
I'm also so tired of living this way and want to go to sleep until they figure it all out and make it go away which seems to be never. i cry everyday and live in isolation. i am missing out on so much of the life i have - death - I'm a living dead so why not just be.......
i am freaking out again - the worms poking and coming out of my face are toooo much to handle. its happening again and of course I'm alone as always even when there here. i losing it. its too much. someone please help me . I'm in the midst of losing it. i feel sick and so creeped out. i hate myself so much and wonder and ask what terrible thing did i do in life to be punished like this. i believe in god even tho my family goes to church - i quit - how can there be a god when all i experience everyday is this loneliness, isolation and hell
i am freaking out again - the worms poking and coming out of my face are toooo much to handle. its happening again and of course I'm alone as always even when there here. i losing it. its too much. someone please help me
I thought it was just me. I have had and still may have the glass like shards in my hand, one on my face that i thought was just a small bump but opened up wide to a nickel size spread of the glass like substance - right on my cheek - bright as day and hard - which then eventually decided to sprout a (I'm getting sick thinking of it) worm, which I totally freaked, and while having a nervous break down extracted it and then right after the group on my neck and lower cheek. If the lesion was open they would pop out for a quick view (a least the two I thought and tried to tell someone I had).
Low and behold in the same area, the day, about the same time one tried to pop out through unbroken skin and as I looked in the mirror and saw this large lump protruding on my face. i had no idea how worse it was going to get and got.....when i saw this, of course i knew what I had to do...... which was to gave him or her a little help (no way was i going to let them be all comfy, cozy and warm under my skin) But what I ended up finding was a large group of these so called words partying it up in there under my skin. I continued my nervous breakdown, screaming, crying hysterically and so creeped out wanting to throw up and oh soo soo alone. I was home alone when it started and even though my son and husband came home I was still so totally alone but this time with the extra pain of not being acknowledged and ignored. They went to bed and I was left with the sickening thought of more of these things coming out during my sleep. It has been the worst part and I am so afraid to even touch my skin, it makes me sick. I constantly worry they are creeping out again and forever keep looking in the mirror hoping for none.
the hair issue is one i dealt with in the beginning. i have long brown hair and thought it was coming from my head each time i washed my hair. I hate hair. I was dumbfounded each time i took a shower and kept finding hair all twisted up and yes i did see it move. it took a while but i finally figured it out is was coming from somewhere on my back.
And yes I too saw things come right through my skin and evaporate into my skin - I thought I was seeing things at first when I would see black specks melt into my skin. Two weeks ago I was going to take my son to San Francisco for the day. I decided to use my regular antibacterial soap vs. the peppermint & menthol cleanser. I felt fine getting in but when i got out I didn't feel right and started to feel itchy & when i looked down at my body - there was so much of everything (except the worms) all over me and not stopping so I had to jump back in and take another with the peppermint soap which worked but didn't work for my poor soon who I couldn't take to SF. He was devastated.
Thank you for confirming that I am not crazy, there is something that hurts and feels like glass, there is pieces of hair that look like their tied up in the middle and about those worms?
one more ugly thing about me, I have scars everywhere.