Post by driven33 on Jul 22, 2016 4:01:48 GMT -5
ok so I'm quite new to all of this and honestly at first I was extremely reluctant to classify myself MG because....well no offense BUT WHO WANTS THIS!?!? BUT there is no denying that symptoms and story match so much of what others have said. The thing is though that aside from the very first signs of something ie "invisible biting bugs" I've been able to see EVERYTHING that's been tormenting me. Now I've yet to invest in a microscope which I suppose I should soon but without it I ssw clearly the tiny black jumpers followed or along with what appeared to be brown lifeless shells? those progressed into white rice and egg like things and now is mostly egg things and bizarre white things. For a moment there were these flat white things that were almost leach like? They would stick to me and were a B**CH to get off! Luckily they seem to have gone. Now I see these white guys that have a separate center that almost seems alive? Occasionally they'll have several things in the middle? I get scabs on my scalp that I truly struggle with and NOT picking them but when I do they look the same.
Now I took a bath the other day and what appeared to be two blades of grass came out of my big toe? Anyone seen that? I have what almost look like worms in my pores and one actually ripped a mole off with it when I pulled it out! Oh it was a mole I've had all my life btw! I have a lesion or two. One on my shin and one on my wrist but I feel like they started from my picking at them. They are taking an exceptionally long time to heal and also seem to have those anchored white worms in them as well. I have had them in my right ear lately and the fold towards the top of that ear has been secreting a clear odorless liquid that dries yellowish and in the shape of the other white "fibers". So strange. I have the wiry hair that dances and doesn't want to be pulled out. It does have the black goo at the root as well. Lately very small white things that almost look like individual pieces of a dead dandelion that you'd blow into the wind and they've been itching llke crazy. Sulphur 8 shampoo has worked wonders as well as Kirks coconut oil soap. I have been staying up on things inside and in my car and today I was running late for work and could only wash my hair and I figured they would torture me all night BUT it wasn't so bad. I know it sounds crazy but I really like fruity pebbles cereal and will just eat it dry as a snack. Everyone makes crumbs or drops food and one or two always end up on the floor BUT the CRAZZZZY, prepare the padded room and restrain the patient, thing is that only if I eat fruity pebbles I'll get the hexagon shapes with the crystal center and they will be green or red or yellow and basically camouflage themselves to look like a fruitty pebble! INSANE. I also get these heart shaped sm all guys burrowing into the edge of my nostril. They will not stop. I pick them out and they come back. I believe its healed and its really them camouflaging as healthy skin. Its ludicrous! I have seen feather type hairs cover a blanket and if you try to pick one off it burrows into the fabric!
At this point I'm staying at my parents house yet paying for an apartment that I'll probably never live in again and because I knew going in that these things infest the carpet and book shelves and clutter Ive paired down to a futon with a cover(high end and surprisingly comfortable) a night stand I disinfect daily and a TV Stand I disinfect daily! I alternate between a few sets of work clothes and very little casual dress and I wash things often. The majority of my clothes and bed clothes have been bagged for a month. I already suffer from attention deficit disorder and I don't believe it's any worse but I have noticed lately that I've been forgetting words or what I was talking about mid sentence.
I have NOT been to see a Dr yet. I tried making an appointment with my sisters Dr but he wasn't accepting new patients and I've read soooooooo many horror stories about Drs that I'm leary of going. I am embarrassed to admit but I believe I recently became infected or....can't think of word to use although it seems obvious....anyway I believe I have genital warts and they could maybe have lowered my immune system? I need a d**ned haircut BUT I love my barber and wouldn't dream of passing this on to her and she recently had a double mastectomy so I'm sure her immune system is low.
I know some people believe they're also infested with colembola but I havent seen anything resembling the pictures online.
I have recently noticed that many of the particles have what appear to be a colored line through them that I'm guessing is "the fibers" but I haven't had any thread like things by themselves yet. I guess what I'd like to know is what everyone else would as well and thats whether or not these things are bugs/worms or if they're simply particles only only? Another thing is that I realize it may be extreme paranoia but I feel like I see the particles EVERYWHERE! And if they are just particles does anyone else deal with them jumping around much? It seems like it's mostly in the car that they jump EVERYWHERE at my ankles and feet. Cleaning ammonia seems to help with this. A handy bottle of windex to coat my socks every now and then does as well. Ugh I suppose we're all just coping but I've heard Lyme disease and others scoff and say that's absurd. I've heard mold and I think I could have been exposed to some in my apartments bathroom wall but I had also just done a few hours of yardwork at my parents when I first noticed symptoms. I miss mowing the grass. I haven't done it since. Any helpful advice would be great. I know this was scattered and long so thanks for reading. Anyway I need a soak in Borax and I'm thinking a viewing of Borat in Borax could help lift my spirits. I do know that you have to remain hopeful and thankful that although the worms may have already moved in today is still a day above ground and that beats the alternative very much! Unless we're all dead and don't know it and the Devil has a sense of humor because we're truly all suffering in HELL! I kid, I kid.
Thanks....
"my soul will wait, my soul wait silently...for God, my God. God my refuge. And I will live and know that some destiny still waits for me"
"sovereign stillness whispers TRUST IN ME"
Now I took a bath the other day and what appeared to be two blades of grass came out of my big toe? Anyone seen that? I have what almost look like worms in my pores and one actually ripped a mole off with it when I pulled it out! Oh it was a mole I've had all my life btw! I have a lesion or two. One on my shin and one on my wrist but I feel like they started from my picking at them. They are taking an exceptionally long time to heal and also seem to have those anchored white worms in them as well. I have had them in my right ear lately and the fold towards the top of that ear has been secreting a clear odorless liquid that dries yellowish and in the shape of the other white "fibers". So strange. I have the wiry hair that dances and doesn't want to be pulled out. It does have the black goo at the root as well. Lately very small white things that almost look like individual pieces of a dead dandelion that you'd blow into the wind and they've been itching llke crazy. Sulphur 8 shampoo has worked wonders as well as Kirks coconut oil soap. I have been staying up on things inside and in my car and today I was running late for work and could only wash my hair and I figured they would torture me all night BUT it wasn't so bad. I know it sounds crazy but I really like fruity pebbles cereal and will just eat it dry as a snack. Everyone makes crumbs or drops food and one or two always end up on the floor BUT the CRAZZZZY, prepare the padded room and restrain the patient, thing is that only if I eat fruity pebbles I'll get the hexagon shapes with the crystal center and they will be green or red or yellow and basically camouflage themselves to look like a fruitty pebble! INSANE. I also get these heart shaped sm all guys burrowing into the edge of my nostril. They will not stop. I pick them out and they come back. I believe its healed and its really them camouflaging as healthy skin. Its ludicrous! I have seen feather type hairs cover a blanket and if you try to pick one off it burrows into the fabric!
At this point I'm staying at my parents house yet paying for an apartment that I'll probably never live in again and because I knew going in that these things infest the carpet and book shelves and clutter Ive paired down to a futon with a cover(high end and surprisingly comfortable) a night stand I disinfect daily and a TV Stand I disinfect daily! I alternate between a few sets of work clothes and very little casual dress and I wash things often. The majority of my clothes and bed clothes have been bagged for a month. I already suffer from attention deficit disorder and I don't believe it's any worse but I have noticed lately that I've been forgetting words or what I was talking about mid sentence.
I have NOT been to see a Dr yet. I tried making an appointment with my sisters Dr but he wasn't accepting new patients and I've read soooooooo many horror stories about Drs that I'm leary of going. I am embarrassed to admit but I believe I recently became infected or....can't think of word to use although it seems obvious....anyway I believe I have genital warts and they could maybe have lowered my immune system? I need a d**ned haircut BUT I love my barber and wouldn't dream of passing this on to her and she recently had a double mastectomy so I'm sure her immune system is low.
I know some people believe they're also infested with colembola but I havent seen anything resembling the pictures online.
I have recently noticed that many of the particles have what appear to be a colored line through them that I'm guessing is "the fibers" but I haven't had any thread like things by themselves yet. I guess what I'd like to know is what everyone else would as well and thats whether or not these things are bugs/worms or if they're simply particles only only? Another thing is that I realize it may be extreme paranoia but I feel like I see the particles EVERYWHERE! And if they are just particles does anyone else deal with them jumping around much? It seems like it's mostly in the car that they jump EVERYWHERE at my ankles and feet. Cleaning ammonia seems to help with this. A handy bottle of windex to coat my socks every now and then does as well. Ugh I suppose we're all just coping but I've heard Lyme disease and others scoff and say that's absurd. I've heard mold and I think I could have been exposed to some in my apartments bathroom wall but I had also just done a few hours of yardwork at my parents when I first noticed symptoms. I miss mowing the grass. I haven't done it since. Any helpful advice would be great. I know this was scattered and long so thanks for reading. Anyway I need a soak in Borax and I'm thinking a viewing of Borat in Borax could help lift my spirits. I do know that you have to remain hopeful and thankful that although the worms may have already moved in today is still a day above ground and that beats the alternative very much! Unless we're all dead and don't know it and the Devil has a sense of humor because we're truly all suffering in HELL! I kid, I kid.
Thanks....
"my soul will wait, my soul wait silently...for God, my God. God my refuge. And I will live and know that some destiny still waits for me"
"sovereign stillness whispers TRUST IN ME"