Post by pmamama on Dec 6, 2013 0:03:43 GMT -5
Hey everyone, My name is PMA MAMA. I am a 35 yr old woman with Positive Mental Attitude, despite the serious health conditions I am facing. I stumbled upon Morgellons info earlier this year because I have been incredibly sick for almost 2 years and it has affected my life in every way possible. I recently tested + for Lyme Disease and the levels were very high. Unfortunately I have received poor treatment by doctors and I feel terribly alone.
I have never written on a website/board about this. I have never spoken to anyone about Morgellons either. I tried to tell my brother about some of my symptoms, but he thought I was having a mental breakdown and hallucinating...he said that it is not humanly nor medically possible for my symptoms to be real. IT IS VERY REAL!!!!
There are a few things I would like to bring up now. These are things I feel that are important and have been on my mind for many months.
1. Is it possible that Morgellons could somehow be related to any kind of new MKUltra kind of program? ( Human experimentation.)
2. I am a former IV drug user and I wonder if either the drugs and whatever is sprayed on crops, or the cottons we used to draw up the drug into syringe could somehow put the Morgellon illness into our bloodstream. Even though my drug use was brief and many years ago and I attend recovery meetings, the group of people I used with also have Morgellons symptoms.
3. I am in so much pain. I do not morally believe in suicide, but I would kill myself because of the pain I am in if I did believe in it.
4. Does anyone else think that the EMF from computers (and possibly morgellons-related websites in particular) could be causing symptoms to be MORE extreme in a non-psychosomatic way?
I hope to provide some info and support for other sufferers. I also hope that I can receive some kindness and understanding here. THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS GROUP AVAILABLE!!!
I have never written on a website/board about this. I have never spoken to anyone about Morgellons either. I tried to tell my brother about some of my symptoms, but he thought I was having a mental breakdown and hallucinating...he said that it is not humanly nor medically possible for my symptoms to be real. IT IS VERY REAL!!!!
There are a few things I would like to bring up now. These are things I feel that are important and have been on my mind for many months.
1. Is it possible that Morgellons could somehow be related to any kind of new MKUltra kind of program? ( Human experimentation.)
2. I am a former IV drug user and I wonder if either the drugs and whatever is sprayed on crops, or the cottons we used to draw up the drug into syringe could somehow put the Morgellon illness into our bloodstream. Even though my drug use was brief and many years ago and I attend recovery meetings, the group of people I used with also have Morgellons symptoms.
3. I am in so much pain. I do not morally believe in suicide, but I would kill myself because of the pain I am in if I did believe in it.
4. Does anyone else think that the EMF from computers (and possibly morgellons-related websites in particular) could be causing symptoms to be MORE extreme in a non-psychosomatic way?
I hope to provide some info and support for other sufferers. I also hope that I can receive some kindness and understanding here. THANK YOU FOR MAKING THIS GROUP AVAILABLE!!!