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Post by morph on Jul 28, 2010 16:44:24 GMT -5
My reward in life at this point seemed to only be the availability to swim in the ocean.
The surf and cool water and penatrating warmth of the sun was a real treat for me. I would swim a half mile everyday with pleasure.
It seems since the FULL BLOWN attack of the maladys inside me I have become a bit paranoid to live. Things that did not bother me before are quite scary now.
It was the surf and sun after all that kept my skin nice for so long, 38 years with this is just alot of maintainence still the disease (disease's) carried on. I wonder did I have all the ingrediants all this time or was there somthing added to my original problem that manifested it so quickly.
I never looked for fibrous material (FIBERS) untill it was explained that there was such a thing, I saw them then.
Right now the gulf of mexico has some oil in it, the sea water itself is full of billions of living organisms in just one cup of water, should I be afraid to swim? Should I be afraid to drink water out of a tap? Should I be afraid of every package, door handle, plate, fork, food, clothing , even the air I breath.
This is somthing I will think about very deeply tomorrow while I sleep on the beach, and swim in the surf.
I would like to thank the attentive administrators here, they are the best. These sites are precious and have saved lives.
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Post by amron on Jul 28, 2010 18:30:31 GMT -5
Shoot morph your beach sounds marvelous! Sun and fun is where we should all be, after all these nights with morgies. I too am growing more concerned about the prognosis, esp. since my hand dumped its contents of worms-morgies and what ever, it was a syfy moment. Have fun for me! I miss the beach.
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Post by sarahconnor on Jul 29, 2010 1:49:13 GMT -5
Must be hand dumping season lol... even though I am on the other side of the world. My fingers have been full of them of late, then the soles of my feet sting & my toes well they just don't look like my toes these days, full of the morgie fibers that feel like glass as they wiggle out.
The beach does sound wonderful, enjoy!...
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Post by morph on Jul 29, 2010 17:49:13 GMT -5
Here are a few ideas to try on the hands,
first get some good rubber gloves,
Then cover your hands with either a good agravator of the morgs
put the gloves on, the heat will have the fake skin coming off and healing started.
I have used GSE strait in the gloves to bring immune responce to the area. The reaxtion can be painful but rewarding as time goes on there will be less ugly and pain and more healing.
To stop this painfull reaction I have used DESITIN ORIGINAL 40% zinc oxide, this also used in the gloves after cleaning them out of the GSE.
The DESITIN will melt away bad skin and make the lesions less active actually dry them up.
Right after taking off the gloves I will jump into a red hot bath with two boxes of baking soda put into the water and scrub the lesions so all the dead skin comes off. I also save a handfull of the baking soda to mix with the shampoo and let it sit on my head while I soak.
You can try many things in tthe gloves but these things I use really work, no doubt it takes time but they do work.
I imagine you could add some zinc powder from capsule's to the mixture of DESITIN, or fill the gloves with thick backing soda which melts the white plastic stuff.
Zinc powder out of a capsule will actually eat away at a lesion and turn it black, this is very painful but does work.
I have a funny feeling that alot of what hurts works so well because it brings direct immune responce to that area, if youe body keeps being forced to do battle maybe it will regain some of its power over this.
Good luck!! my hands are almost perfect, the skin is now thicker not see thru also my hands are almost completly free of results of carple tunnel and artritis. Thats funny huh.
I noticed at one point when I walked hard my hands would become VERY stiff and tingle now they don't!!!!!
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Post by sarahconnor on Jul 29, 2010 18:54:22 GMT -5
wow, thanks morph for the info. I will have to check those products you mention on line to see if we have the equivalent in Australia.
Luckily my hands don't have any lesions, however my fingers are swelling again, & what appears as dry skin or a callous builds up on areas of my fingers.
What lead me again to think that my hands were filling up with morgs was as you mention, the carpal tunnel symptoms & tingling. My hands cause me a great deal of pain during the night, waking me, both hands are numb, literally dead & tingling. This happens without even lying on my hands, as I'm really particular about how I place my hands when I sleep to avoid the carpal tunnel symptoms.
It's the battle I struggle with, so tired of the pain this can bring on if you try to attack it.
Some would say I'm crazy, but I just know that these little fibers are the reason my hands tingle & show signs of carpal tunnel. I know that if I went to the doctor & had nerve conduction studies nothing would show up.
Thanks again for the advice.
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Post by morph on Jul 29, 2010 22:46:35 GMT -5
The spot you need to attack on your hand is in line with your thumb below your wrist , this spot on me is 1 1/2 inch long. I have a perfect line of small scars evenly spaced going from there to my elbow. Even the idiot doctor could see the trail, it is where the nerve runs.
If you keep treating your arm with GSE and hydrogen peroxide 35% you will start to alleviate this problem over time. You will find at first a increase in the problem soon after treating, that is when you actually deliver some of either fluid , but that should subside quickly.
I have done this I would say a thousand times or more, all the time getting better, the results are lasting when you get rid of the underskin system.
Watch the skin, if you see a round or oblong red spot forming back off unless you want to expose what is living under the skin, you can do this with little pain and suffering if you just control the amout of applications.
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Post by sarahconnor on Jul 30, 2010 0:57:23 GMT -5
What is GSE? My google search gave me nothing. Will this treatment work on the soles of my feet & toes?
My scars form an assemble too, so weird.
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Post by morph on Jul 30, 2010 4:34:30 GMT -5
Sara conners, First I will show you a picture before and after, the before picture was not yet the WHOLE monster uncovered, it was bigger than this, look at it see its ugly face, this is what makes the biofilm, yellow fluid, Look and see the shiny skin also, that will also be removed all of it, everything that has no hair will be open showing the red pulp before it is over. I do not stop treating or play as I do not want to fight this thing again or have it make a garden out of my brain so look www.flickr.com/photos/barakaobam/4798907614/The next picture is after two months treatment NEVER letting it heal over with fake skin, there is still a tiny bit of involvment BUT I am still working on it, when I am done the hair will come back and it will be NORMAL hair for the most part. This is unbelievable compared to what most are doing covering over what is destroying them, the longer we stay alive without cancer or other problems from this the more likely we will live a better life as they find ways to alleviate this suffering. Now look at this www.flickr.com/photos/barakaobam/4800395650/ GRAPEFRUIT SEED EXTRACT, it is the dam best destroyer that I have used other than HYDROGEN PEROXIDE 35%. If you buy it buy the 32 ounce, I will give you all the info you need to purge this filth. It is not instant but can be used slowly over time or heavy. It depends on your will, your condition and what goes on in your life. www.allhealthtrends.com/Grapefruit-Seed-Extract.htmlBelieve me when you use it for a week you will know its power, If you have yellow goo flowing,bio film some call it this will remove and stop that mess. The top of my head was forming all those spots like real old guys get, i had bio film, lesions all over the top of my head. I look like a prince now, LOL, well maybe an old king. The mess is all gone. There is caution when using on the top of the head when it is FULL of morgs, you have to start with it watered down. If you do not start with it watered down you risk a reaction that will have you crying for mother. When you have finally found the mixture that you can feel it working but does not make you cry keep with it, make it stronger from that point on. PAY ATTENTION, the reaction will take time, so give it 1 hour If I were you I would start with 1 to 5 mixture GSE to water, if that gives no reaction at all make it 1 to 4 and so on. As soon as the scalp can take full strength GSE use it that way, trial and hopefully no error. You can use it on your legs full strenght right off use a tiny tad of water to allow it to be rubbed easily, just a few drops, use it heavy on the legs. Before you start take your finger and press down on the shinbone drag your finger from bottom to top, feel all those bumps, evenly spaced, in time they will go away, do the knee caps and behind them. When you get it we will talk on skype or some how, that will have you treating all the right places. here is a site to get it, buy the 32 ounce you will need this size to treat for anywhere from 6 months to a year, it is the bedt money you can spend. Get a 16 ounce bottle of food grade 35% hydrogen peroxide also, you can actually use it to find underskin hidden areas. If you just want them closed or you want them gone this is the best for either. There is a caution though, if you do not want to expose the `lesions to kill them and that is the best way, then watch as you treat not to go too far, if you start to see the shapes coming clear on the skin, then just back off untill you see them start to go back to business as usual, then start in again. This way will take longer but you will be alot better looking. To treat open lesions mix a little zinc powder from a capuel with gse and apply cover with a bandaid. This will melt away the hard white stuff nicely, the zinc works well, it will burn at first but this will subside. Do your legs, feet first as they take the pain easy. If you have mouth issues you can use gse WAY watered down in mouth. If you have sinus problems you will after a week have given yourself a new breath on life. In the sinus take a arosol nasal spray bottle, add 4 drops to a small bottle to start with, this would be a small bottle, then make it stronger and stronger untill you get a sneezing reaction, REMEMBER this will take TIME for the reaction after application to make it work so just be patient in between treatments and finding the perfect mixture. The GSE reacts with morg infected soft tissue, when it is beat back you will be surprised how nice it is to take a deep breath of our chemical filled air, LOL. I do super purges at times that have my sinuses flow out fluid like mad for actually an hour and a half or more, and sneezing, but this is great. Do you have the pins and needles in the nose, i do not anymore.
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Post by sarahconnor on Jul 30, 2010 19:10:09 GMT -5
Hi morph,
A quick note to say "thanks" for the great post. Unfortunately I can't read it all today. I read the first para & opened the first link. I can't stomach any of this just right now. I'll be ok, have a virus or flu or cold, goodness knows what it is, it just keeps coming back.
Anyway, I promise I will reply to your post when I feel a little better.
BTW the lesion on your neck...isn't it like the Manchurian Candidate? Biofilm has grown over mine, but seeing that image brought back a lot of pain.
I'll check ya later, thanks.
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Post by morph on Jul 30, 2010 20:49:06 GMT -5
Sara that lesion did not SHOW at all, I uncovered it, then destroyed it. The two pictures are a fact of life.
I can not in all honesty let a invader grow where my brain lives, if i have to I will go meet a bear in the woods, taunt him untill he litterally rips off my face and then while I am seeing thing clearly grind the dirty little mothers off my head before they sew my face back on.
I will not give up and with a screen name like saraconners I would not think you would let the sight of a little red blood engorged biological body invader make you ill.
I am so much more better, live or die we have options.this is not the complete answer but it is a real nice start.
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Post by sarahconnor on Aug 4, 2010 21:00:25 GMT -5
Hi Morph, After looking at the 2nd image, looks as though you've done a great job. Thank you for the information on Grapefruit seed extract.
It wasn't just the image that made me feel ill, I did in fact have a nasty virus. However, my stomach does turn easily these days with the sight of some images. Now that I'm a mother my whole perspective on life has changed. I can not help but worry for my child, he is only 3yrs. I would die if this happened to him. I was very unwell with M's when I gave birth & wouldn't you know it, that is when I was diagnosed with DOP when I was 7 months pregnant. An utter disgrace.
I'm not giving up that easy either!! Thanks again for your informative post.
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Post by morph on Aug 5, 2010 15:23:34 GMT -5
I completly understnd your worrys and pain. Our treck is severly compounded by our childrens well being. I feel the same as you as I do have a child.
The GSE is an excellent way to uncover and treat the lesions, heavy use will undoubtably uncover the hidden mess, then you can be forced to deal with the ugly critter in a more aggressive fashion, that is where the horribly painfull 35% hydrogen peroxide really does the job, the pei associated is not for the weak of heart. The treatments when attempted should be started on only hidden areas (legs) as the pain is less there.
i shudder every time I think of doing these treatments but I am more determined to kill the lesion/tumors than I am afraid of short term extreem pain.
Hope you all the best.
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Post by amron on Aug 7, 2010 3:10:31 GMT -5
Uncovering the horrible mess, yes it is not for the faint of heart. I feel like I have given one more day to morgies. Very time consumming, and in some mental anguish. I keep thinking how long has this been here. I think I noticed the small bumps under skin on arms, about 5 or 6 yrs. ago. I questioned my friends about does this come from age? They didnt know, they didn't have it. I certainly would have been after it sooner, if I knew what kindl of hell those innocent lumps would produce.
Its like going to the garbage dump, I never know what's coming up next. I just grit my teeth and bare the horrible surgery. After I settle down and feel relieved that I got a whole bunch of them, I quiet the savage beast with a slattering of olive oil. Thanks for being there morph, I get stronger as I work at trying to clear my stressed out skin.
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Post by morph on Aug 7, 2010 7:56:16 GMT -5
Amron, go back in time, for a woman there are sever menstral changes that go on, drying raw feeling, hair loss, allopecia bald spots on the head, hair thinning, little bumps on the scalp, all kinds of little things. In fact go over your life and try to remember when you started being other then PERFECTLY healthy.
Did you have any military men in your life after the vietnam war, it does not have to be the case as this is comunicable, I know that positivly.
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Post by amron on Aug 8, 2010 3:59:44 GMT -5
Sorry to pop your bubble morph, but at the time I got sick I was a bible thumping chaplains asst. also very married. Since I wasn't snow white in the late sixtys, and my new husband brought home a delightful case of the mysterys of the Orient, that was very hard to clear up. I could have said yes, but not so. I was in SF. three different times that the marvelous Army was checking out bio weapons. In 62 Mt Zion hosp, was pretty sure I got one of the army virus's causing MS.
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Post by morph on Aug 8, 2010 6:42:08 GMT -5
I was suggesting possibilities not fact.
Why do women get so irritated over comunicable disease possibility but not cancer, hmmmmmm. I will have to contemplate that or maybe one can tell me. Not me. NOT THAT.
I am positive this can be spread by human contact.
No bubble popped, because I KNOW when the itching started, and got less but never completly went away I know when and where a part of this started. I do not know if there is more involvment over time with other vectors of disease.
There are many things men and women are but one of them is not saints. I knew a gentleman, a very reserved white collar worker, xrew cut all his life, married, children, who would never be thought to sway one way or the other from everything good, moral and CLEAN. Well Lam happy to report while going thru this mans papers after his demise I found out after all, he had a fun side, I am sure he still went to heaven.
There are 7 billion people on the earth all born of a mother and father, imagine after all this time of propagation still sex is spoken of like it is black magic.
You know I had some Chinese tell me why is sex everything in America, so much sex. I said there is only 300 million in America, you have 4 times that, so we must just talk about it, while the Chinese do it, LOL, too funny they did not want to talk about it any more.
all I was saying is go back in time and search for the time when things really started, it was not yesterday, mine was 38 years ago.
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Post by sarahconnor on Aug 8, 2010 6:58:17 GMT -5
Hi morph & amron, I have to say you guys have this thing wrapped up so well, you describe everything about this horror to a "T". You have no idea how enlightening it is to know there are other people feeling the same way as me. I still can't believe this is real, & I have had a great deal of trouble in the past even believing other people have this, particularly before I'd actually met another sufferer face to face. Meeting someone else with this for the first time is so darn emotional I don't have the words to describe it. I can tell you there was a lot of crying & holding onto one another as we shared our experience. Comparing scars was another interesting thing! My friend rolled up his sleeves & showed me the lesions on his arms. I knew straight away what I was looking it, a feeling I will never forget...I went "cold".
I've gone backwards & forwards over my life, I've lost count!lol still trying to figure out what started what & when & then how & then the big fat WHY! You do have a point though morph in what you're saying about hormones, menstrual changes etc & remembering when you started feeling other than PERFECTLY healthy. For me, easy 20+ yrs ago.
When I think back about the time I've put into the maintenance, actually no sorry, "the torture" of this disease, I've literally lost years off my life. Back in '98 I started digging this stuff out of my arms, the symptoms were different back then. I could obviously see with the naked eye that I had a mass of blue "fuzz" growing over lesions. The funny thing is, I convinced myself it was from my clothes or bed sheets, even though it really didn't make sense, I settled for that! I didn't have the internet back then & it wasn't until 2002 I actually first used the internet, & it wasn't until 2004 that I finally put a name to my affliction. Unfortunately by then, I was in a terrible state.
I guess the upside is, I'm doing a lot better these days, given the circumstances. My daily life is a constant up hill battle, a daily slug that at times is so bloody painful I just wanna throw the towel in!...but I can't & we can't.
I'd like to be able to live with the hope that we will all be freed from this prison some day soon.
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Post by amron on Aug 9, 2010 5:51:33 GMT -5
Thanks Compatriots, Yes we need to cling together like the plastic that surrounds the morgies, I need my people, we are in the life boat, sharing vital messages on how to survive.
Too good to be true, my tea concoction stopped being painless on my tumors. Back to agony and slow process. I haven't gotten the grapefruit seed yet, but I will.
Some ugly new problems have occured, the black tar stuff has showed up. I kept thinking wow, this tea sure is darkening the situation, and I realized that this was the tar others have talked about. It hardens up tighter than a tick, and is tougher than plastic. Those morgie cells are so packed that a stick of dynamite is necessary. I am sure you guys have checked out Merkel Cell Carcinoma, but it starts in the head region on nerve, vein spots, metastisse much like morgies, major nerve involvement. The composition of the cells or original tumor, is very simuilar. It is systemic, and proliferates everywhere. They need electron microcopses to study it. No universaly accepted staging system for (MCC)exist. The orgin is highly controversial and mystifing. Could be a link up to fibre disease, oh well only a thought. Our vascular problem is our demise, s--- when we outwardly get a handel on this thing, we get jolted backward.
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Post by morph on Aug 9, 2010 16:37:15 GMT -5
Glad your doing better my man RAIDER, the heart thing is interesting, another friend of mine had a heart like swiss cheese, he was supposed to die.
I know during my gall bledder operation that I almost died and I am quite sure it was to the reaction to the anistesia,, the doctor was quite concerned about my heart.
I have noticed when taking pills for pain that the situations get better.
Your posting and talking about your situation helps others maybe understand what has happened or is happening to them.
AMRON, try the two box baking soda baths to get rid of the black specks. tar, who knows it drew them out of me.
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Post by shubot on Aug 15, 2010 12:44:19 GMT -5
Hi, Morph. It is good to see you back on this board. I hope you are doing well. I wondered what happened to you. shu
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